Using Trust and Love

[caressa]

"USING TRUST AND LOVE - I CHANGE AND GROW INTO HIGHER AND BETTER THINGS."

We are aware that blaming and arguing never helps us and only creates a wider gap between us, and that only understanding, trust and love can help us change and grow.

- Thich Nhat Hanh

Learning to trust myself has been a long and difficult journey for me. Even though I was told many years ago, "If you doubt yourself, you are doubting God!" Yet when the old tapes play, when people project their thoughts and feelings onto me, and I push the play button and give up my power, then I put myself in a place of mistrust, doubt and low self-worth.

Someone can't put me down unless I allow them to, they can't have the power unless I give it up, and today, thanks to the program, I can pause and take and inventory and prioritize my life and redirect my actions.

Today I know that God is love, that all He wants for me is love and goodness, and that my purpose is to carry that message to others.

In the past I was always told, "Who are you to say? Who are you to know? What makes you think..." In today it isn't about what others think, say and do, it is about my recovery. My serenity and sobriety (soundness of mind) is what has to come first.

I have to learn to listen for and trust that voice within. i had to learn to believe that God loved me and that He directed people, places and things into my life to show me a better way of living, so long as I follow that way, I have nothing to fear. I can walk in faith and know and trust that God is with me.

[majestyjo]

The Spider in Jamie Sams' Animal Medicine book means "Within." I need to go within myself to connect to my Higher Power. For so many years, I looked out of myself for something that would make me feel better. I looked in a lot of wrong places and tried many substances to stuff my feeling and take me out of today.

www.whats-your-sign.com/spider-symbol-meaning.html

As my co-sponsor (a Native American woman) said, "If you doubt yourself, you doubt your Higher Power. Trust and listen to that Inner Voice. If you turn yourself over to the God of your understanding, that Voice with direct you.

Love this picture. Someone who is sure of his self and walking with assurance whose heart if full of love.

[majestyjo]

It is the theme of my thinking this morning. Trust God, clean house, and stay on your own side of the street. When I think about it, my child can identify with AA because I too became an alcoholic. I am comfortable in Al-Anon because it helps me to detach. In ACoA, I learn to trust myself and I identify so much with the literature. It is like mirror, mirror, on the wall, who is the fairest of them all. That would be me, me, me.

[majestyjo]

My newest prayer, thank you for lifting the negativity of anything not of Divine Light and Love. Trust the process, trust my High Self.