DROPPING THE PAST

[caressa]

Gather courage - the journey has already started. Even if you go back you will not find the old shore again. Even if you go back, those old toys wil not be of any help anymore; you are finished with them, you wil know they are toys. Now the real has to be found, has to be inquired into.

And it is not very far away either - it is within you.

Every moment something is becoming dead. Don't be antique collectors; that which is dead, leave it. You go with life, you flow with life, with your reality and intensity, and you will never face any dilema, any problem.

- Osho

My sponsor says, "Call them challenges! Problems you can get stuck in, challenges you can overcome."

When I was using, I was living in an illusion. When I came into reality and didn't use, I was able to face reality. It took several years to find real awareness and knowingness. To find my own personal truth, took even longer. It is only by looking at the past, recognizing it for what it was, then moving on with my life, I was able to Let go and Let God!

[majestyjo]

Remember several times over the past years of sobriety thinking, "I have been here before. I remember this." When I looked at it, it was either something that had popped up from my past or a difficult time in early recovery, and thinking, "I don't want to go back there." To keep from going there, to where every 'there' was in the moment, I had to get back to basics. Back to basics were going to a meeting, calling my sponsor, reading my recovery literature, working on a step(s), doing meditation, and reaching out to others.

When I think of someone, I always try to remember to send out a prayer for them. Many times, after doing so, I see them or they call me, like my friend who answered my call from a couple of days ago.

The other day a friend came to mind, I called and her husband told me she was in the hospital. I have had a bad cough, a runny nose, and a sore throat for a few days, so can't go to the hospital, but I can continue to send out prayers.

We no longer have to play those old games.