Tuesday chip-tolerance /intolerance

[Lin]

I came here at 4 to post on the chip and there was not a chip. So i came back at 7 and still no chip. I really needed a chip today, so I hope nobody minds that I picked one.

Tolerance? today I ahve a bit of a problem with it. Might be clsoe to anger..isappointment...but mostly tolerance. Last night when I was oging to bed I picked up some dish towels by the bed. Hidden under one was a little brown bag. I glanced aroudn and saw no empty botles so I went to the famous OLD hiding place..the gutter by the patio jsut out the bedroom dooor. I stood in a chair and found 3 empty half pint vodka bottle. I put the sack on the nightstand and the three bottles in the trashcan. He got up during the night and moved them. It's liek he thinks if he keeps sleeping he wont have any reason to explain himself. No need anyway. he's an alkie. Taht's what alkies do. But i was very disappointed that he had that need to drink jsut because i was gone all day to a meeting. I have not mentioned anything to him...not sure i will. he knows that i know. That's enough for me. I did nto say a word.

But i am a bit intolerant this morning. I dont want him to use me going back to work as an excuse. Out ofmy control. I know that. powerless over his actions. i know that. Hurst and disappointed that he cant watch TV and stay in out of the heat without a bottle in his hands.

Sorry for rambling. Not really in a good place today. trying my best to accept the things I cannot change.

I feel more on the intolerant side of this chip today.

LIN

[Lin]

What a shame. I came here and posted...hurting and not in a good place. It's been 4 hours and not one reply. I rememebr the time when a hurting post got a reply withing 10 or 15 minutes...night or day.

So sad EOR has come to this.

LIN

[dg]

Hi Lin,
I did see your post earlier today but didn't have the time to post a reply.
I am sorry that your husband is back to the bottle. I guess this is something that we all should be grateful taht we have our program to fall back on for days like this., with disappointments that follows.
You shouldnt' feel guilty or bad that you have to go back to work, and your husband should be glad that you are well enough to do this for the both of you. I am unable to work myself and my husband is the breadwinner, believe me, I am very glad that he is able to do that and still is sober today!!!
Keep your chin up and you know our motto, one day a time.
tomorrow is another day.
*********************************8

PS.. yeah, its sad that EOR is falling down like it is, I really was hoping that the new webmaster would be a part of this site, and keep it going like Kathleen did, after all, isn't that what recovery is about, sharing yoru ESH. Without that, this too shall be a past of our wonderful memories of how Kathleen made EOR what it was. Just stating my opinion..

[Misty]

My Dearest Lin----I am so sorry for your discovery. I think there is a old saying ignorance is bliss
Is this a cry for help? Or is he just settling into his drinking routine? You need to remember that it is very natural for an alcoholic to drink and very very
un-natural for an alcoholic to be
sober. I have been sober 21 years and recently I have been dreaming about drinking and smoking. I have not had a cigarette in 3 years. I
still want to drink & smoke but the consequences are too rough to handle. I am very very sad that we don't have much action on the msg boards any more. It is real sad and disappointing. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Love & Hugs---Donna
aka Mistyeve

[Lin]

Thanks DG and Misty. Right after I posted abtou it being sad nobody had replied, I went to another site and posted. When I checked back i had 10 replies.

I appreciate you two replying...THANKS~!

LIN

[Misty]

Dear Lin----It sure isn't as lively as it used to be but we are trying to stir up some life in this column anyway. Thanks for stopping back to check in HOney!!!
Love & Hugs---Mistyeve