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Post by Misty on Jul 26, 2005 22:09:51 GMT -5
I am jealous of all the happy couples in this world. I lost a husband and a boyfriend and I am NOT content to be alone. I like to be part of a couple. I miss snuggling up to smooth, white, satin skin....Are you jealous or content??? Please let me know!!!
Thanks----Mistyeve
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Post by Lin on Jul 27, 2005 4:17:29 GMT -5
I never was jealous of being a "couple" . But I HAVE BEEN jealous of havinga "normal" family. When I was a kid I wanted parents who I was not ashamed to bring my friends over. I was always afraid one or both woudl be drunk and embarrass me. That often happened. And when i married I woudl see people with kids...(we never were able to have one)...see people shopping and the husband was not being obnoxious to clerks or falling over displays....and I'd see people dressed up to go to church as a family on Sundays. We didnt go. I really was jealous. But when I found recovery I realized I had choices. And once I made my choice to stick it out andstay instead of leave...I needed to change my attitude. I realized I coudl go to church by myself if I wanted. I realized I could go shopping by myself if he was drunk. I realized that by not having kids I could spend more time and money and energy doing things for my students and my neices and nephews. recovery helped me appreciate what I had, not go looking for what i thought I wnted.
Try not to dwell on not being part of a couple, Misty. If ti's meant to be, it will happen. Be patient.
LIN
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Post by Misty on Jul 27, 2005 8:39:13 GMT -5
Dear Lin---THANKS HONEY!!!
Mistyeve
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Post by lildee on Jul 27, 2005 13:49:39 GMT -5
Hi Misty,
Be careful what you wish for. You could be part of a "couple" and still feel as though you were alone. Your partner could be cold as ice, or so neurotic he doesn't have a clue how to give love. Giving and getting love has to start with you and caring enough to love yourself. When you can look in that mirror in the morning and say I am OK , I love me today then you can love another. Just my humble opinion.
jealous /content
Well not content on many levels.
1) what has become of this site
2) difficulties with teen aged daughter
3) stoic husband
4) boredom from being trapped in the house because of the intense heat
Jealous honestly.... yes to a certain extent. Jealous of all the "normies" out there that have a stable sane relationship, with a loving caring spouse. And kids that haven't been affected by this disease. There are times when I wish none of this had happened and I could start life over with a clean fresh slate for all of us. But alas that is wishful thinking and will get me nowhere. So I just do the best I can ODAT, using the tools I have been given.
Love & God Bless
Arlene
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Post by Misty on Jul 27, 2005 16:48:31 GMT -5
My Very Dear Arlene---You are just adorable! I don't know many people who can use the word "alas"
and make it sound good like you do
So impressive!!! LOL Thanks for the reminder of lookin my self in the eye in the mirror. I was taught that in treatent in the early days and need to remember the basics. The is an old poem called the man in the glass. I will hunt around for it. It talks about to thy own self be true. It's a real good thing to keep in mind. Glad you could stop by today and post! Love & Hugs----Mistyeve
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.