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Post by caressa on Dec 7, 2005 16:52:22 GMT -5
Tolerance isn't one of my strong points, especially with myself. I have so much to do, and there seems to be so little time to do it in. This has been due to lack of energy and I have had to look at where I am leaking energy and not conserving it for things that are a priority in my life.
Tonight I am booked to go to the jail to do a meeting in Young Offender Unit for Al-Anon. This is my priority today. This morning my priority was my noon f2f meeting. I have laundry to do and I left the girls today in the coffee shop saying I was going home to do laundry, yet when I got here, I knew that I would be too tired and exhausted to give my attention to what I need for tonight. Laundry hasn't disappeared yet, so I know it will still be there tomorrow. I have had the money, the need, etc. but no energy to get it done.
I have to accept it and not be intolerant of myself and not look at it unrealisticly. I have fibromyalgia and I am limited as to what I can do in a given day. When I try to do more, then I end up giving and doing less.
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Post by ~graced~ on Dec 7, 2005 23:56:13 GMT -5
Tough stuff to get to deal in day in, day out, Caressa. Positive thoughts and prayers to you.
Can I add myself to the 'intolerant' of ME list? *sigh* I'm still trying to heal from back surgery from the start of October and it's the pits! Mostly, cuz of my own expectations of ME. The surgery was just fine--went without a hitch even though they did more than they originally planned to do. It's the patience and tolerance of my own limitations today. And that's all based on MY expectations of ME.
No one else is placing them ON me--just me...LOL
Par for the course--this has been an ongoing dilema for me. I've developed a whole lot of tolerance in my dealings with other children of G-d. I try to keep my expectations out of it....LOL But can I be 'gentle' with myself?
*chuckling*
Spent a whole lotta 24 hours critiquing the world around me, being intolerant of anyone and anything NOT to my liking cuz *I* knew what was BEST, dangit!
And here I am, believing I know what's best for ME--which is something I simply need to surrender and abide by what G-D'S will is FOR me.
Someone hand me the bonking stick so I can whack myself with it, will ya? LOL
Love and tolerance of OTHERS is our code? LOL
Guess I won't have to look in the mirror and say "you are looking at the problem" cuz I just acknowledged it here!
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Post by caressa on Dec 8, 2005 5:21:28 GMT -5
I can identify!!! I want to do what I want to do, when I want to do it!!!
I just went to Yahoo and checked out my horoscope and this is what it said.
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Post by ~graced~ on Dec 8, 2005 8:46:45 GMT -5
I have people around me who are chronically interpretting my self inventorying as being 'hard on myself'. I guess in some aspects they have a point...LOL But the 'rule' is "hard on ourselves, easy on others" for a reason.
I spent a whole lotta time taking everyone's inventory BUT mine.
Today I know there's a need to take that inventory multiple, MULTIPLE times daily.
Inventorying isn't some self imposed beating. It's a calling to my attention of those defects that are getting in the way of my usefullness to G-d and others. It doesn't feel self-depreciating at all to me.
But this intolerance of my own limitations and these self imposed expectations that I can get intolerant of myself for NOT meeting-- Small wonder someone looked at me the other day and said "EASY there, spunky..you're dancing as fast as you can."
I just think I OUGHTA be able to dance faster...LOL
*hugs*
That's what I get for thinking, eh?
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Post by Lin on Dec 8, 2005 12:32:55 GMT -5
We all have limitations. I try not to see mine as limitations or I may become intolerant of myself. An example is my Height. I am 5"2". So reaching a high shelf or changing a lightbulb I have to get a ladder or a sturdy chair. That's a limitaiton. SOmething I can't do with as much ease as I'd like. I use ACCEPTance to get past it.
Wonderful to see you feeling well enough to POST today Graced!
LIN
LIN
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Post by lildee on Dec 9, 2005 9:14:15 GMT -5
Tolerant/Intolerant
Previously I was highly intolerant of myself . Judging my weight, my height, even my shoe size all as negative elements in my life.
By practicing self - affirmations on a daily basis I have learned to accept myself , and build my self - esteem. I am a good beautiful child of God.
Love & God Bless
lildee
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.