Relaxed/Tense

[caressa]

Not sure how to describe how I am feeling in today.

My feet have been swollen again and I am having problems with numbness in my body and I have been fighting going to emergency because my doctor says there is nothing wrong.

Having feet so swollen you can hardly walk on them doesn't seem to healthy for me, and I find myself getting up tight and worrying about what may be the wrong. I guess if I don't find out, I will never know, but I think it is a rejection issue, something I had with my other doctor.

I would like to be able to just relax today and go to my sponsor's anniversary tonight. I think I have a fear that if I go to the hospital, I won't be able to make it. I also want to meet her sponsor, a woman who started the Women's AA Group that I use to belong to. She is coming from out of town and it has been a long time since I have seen her. My biggest problem is having to walk six blocks to get to the meeting.

If I turn it over, relax in the comfort of my Higher Power, I know things will turn out as they should, not as I would have them be.

[lildee]

Hopefully things will work out for you Caressa... feel better.

Relaxed / tense

For the most part I am relaxed. Holiday shopping is done, packages and cards have been sent on their way, and I am in good shape for the holiday.

Yet there is a nagging tenseness with my younger daughter. She knows how to push my buttons, how to get a rise out of me. Maybe it is a control issue and who is really in control, maybe it's an authority issue, maybe it's hormones (hers raging and mine dwindling). LOL Somehow her negativity and nastiness just permeate the whole house affecting everyone. She is stuck in the "my way" syndrome. As an adult and parent I am not trying to control her but guide her to living like a sane human being, which is becoming an insurmountable task as there doesn't seem to be anyway to reach her. I ask God to give me the strength to make the right choices with regard to her.


love & God Bless
Arlene

[dg]

Relaxed for me is hardly the thing for me to do today, my mind is filled with things that I got to do from my usual everyday humdrum chore list, yet, its not worth being all tensed up over because I just might not get it all done today, so if I only focus on just one thing, one major thing from the list, I will have to force myself to relax and not feel all guilty over what the outcome of this day..

[caressa]

Feeling better today, have found a little more acceptance of what is, and trying to go with the flow. My friend is leaving on Thursday morning to go visit her son for the holiday and I am going to be cat sitting. I will probably be more at her home than my own.

Contrary to what it may look like, I am not going through an identity crisis. I am trying to find a gif that works and will stay in place. Did want one for the holiday season, so will see how long this one lasts. It said free gifs, yet they seem to not last long. Hope this one works, seems chatty just like me. LOL