Chip for Thursday---relaxed/tense.

[Lin]

This is the chip I am dealing with today. I am relaxed most of the time. But TODAY...I woke up after sleeping crooked or something....and my neck and left side was stiff and I could not turn. I could not even look down toward my tummy to give myself my morning shot. I had to guess where I spread the alcohol swab. I knoew I had an early appointment and went ahead with that. Driving was difficult when I could not turn my head at all. I finally got a chance to get to my regular chiropractor's office. Guess what. TODAY is the day he has business hours only in the afternoon and evening. There was no way I coudl wait until 4 to even start waiting to be worked in. So I went to see a differnt one...a very young doctor that I taught in 3rd grade. And..he was out of the office on Thursday but his secretary was in. I went nearby and called. She called him, he came in since it was ME and I spent abotu 2 hours in his office. The pain was pretty powerful and I dont do pain well. He said nothing was broken..it was muscle spasms. I got some Aleve at the store and am going back in the morning. This afternoon I am putting ice packs on my neck every 15 minutes.

It's very hard to be relaxed. I dont think I am actually "tense"...but I am not relaxed either. Hopefully in a couple of days I can get a bit more relaxed when it starts to feel better.

And every trial I have i see as a learning experience. Tonight I will move a dog on my pillow instead of trying to squeeze in and share. LOL

Are you relaxed or tense?

LIN

[caressa]

Today, I got up with an impatient cat telling me it was time to get up. My friend is due back from her holidays and I am getting a bit tense because I expected her home by now. I can't remember her every giving me a time of arrival, so will try to be patient and not project tense energies onto her cats. I have told them 'Mom' is coming home today.

Hope you are feeling better soon Lin. Perhaps some deep meditation will help, breathng in and out, trying to take your breath to the tense places, helps me to release tension.

[lildee]

Definetly tense today, but somewhat better than yesterday. That was pure chaos. Bratty self - willed child is driving everyone nuts. Push came to shove and out she was thrown out. A truly hard thing to do especially with my caring nature. I have a hard time with being tough with anyone especially my own kids. But it has just gotten to the point of no return and something had to be done. We tried the loving route and were only stepped on. We tried taking away everything (TV, radio , phone computer and so on) that didn't work. We tried tough love and that was a no go.... I have never seen anyone with such hate in their heart, mean spirited and disrespectful. So push came to shove and she got shoved out the door. no shoes no coat... just out. Finally around 2 AM I went ot lock up for the night and she was sleeping on the floor in front of the door. So here we go again waiting for the next explosion. Geeze this kid is worse than anything I had to deal with , with the addict ! So things are tense and everyone is walking on eggshells. Me I am just detaching from the whole crock of sXXt. Boot camp maybe on the agenda for this one. At least she'll learn some respect. I have no idea where she became so lost. So the guilt is overwhelming along with the anger and resentment. Hit my knees plenty of times with this one .... still waiting for an answer ....

Sorry for the vent.

Love & God Bless
Arlene

[Lin]

Thanks for the replies. I'm so sorry you aRE dealing wiht this Lildee. I know it's hard to see a child act up like this. Turning her over to your HP is the best thing for you right now. I will keep you both in my prayers, also.

LIN

[caressa]

Dear Lildee,

When it comes to kids, it sure is tough. I never got to see my son over the holidays. I called him yesterday to say hi. He said, "You know me mom, I am a lazy bum...." which means he was using and knows not to come around when he is. It is heart breaking but it is better that way. I learned a long time ago that I couldn't put a cushion under his 'bottom' yet it isn't always easy to detach with love. For me, it is also about letting go of my anger more so than guilt.