Post by Lin on Jan 27, 2006 5:44:14 GMT -5
Yesterday was a day filled with both of these character traits for me. That's unusual. I was thoughtful because I volunteered to letter the 100 nametags for the whole 3rd grade for our "prayer day". I was thoughtful because I bought a cooler full of small dasani water bottles for the adults who volunteered to help. I was thoughtful because I paid for the lunches for the 4 parents from my room as well as the three nuns who led the days activities.
But self pity? I was FULL of that yesterday. The night before was another major relapse for my husband. He got totally drunk. I had to go to my second job and I realized later that he actually left in the truck to buy more vodka while I was out. (phone message of a missed call) Then the 9 week old puppy had a night of wanting to play and harrass humans and her 3 brothers so I did not sleep much. Not making excuses for the self pity...jsut realizing HALT had a part in it.
At hardees two different "freinds" made remarks that I took quite personally. Then there was a copy of the changes in table assignments for 20 of the 100 nametags that I had worked for several hours doing. I brought my lunch and gave it to the cafeteria manager to pack in the box with the sstudent lunches and she forgot. Parents who not said they were coming showed up so some tables had 4 parents and some barely had 1. (ones who did nto stay all day) It seemed like the least little thing during the day brought me to tears. Then I got home..tried for the 3rd straight day to call the groomer for an appointment. no answer. Called my best friend who has the sister to mine..had her groomed and was tellig the groomer how she was surprised I had nto gotten there first. Of course..SHE has time to call during the morning and get the appointment and I dont. (groomer seems to be leaving early these days.) Then the vet told my husband yesterday that our oldest has a heart murmer. So I tried to call and talk to him about trying medication before the put to sleep EKG test he was suggesting but he was gone for the day. His hours today when I could possible catch him do not help me because I dont ahve any breaks today. unless you count my 15 minutes I have to eat lunch, get my mail and go to the bathroom)
So more self pity. It was like I was wearing my feelings on my sleeves. That's not like me. Tears came so easily . That's not like me.
Today I hope to start a new day and not let stuff get to me. I will be cheerful and let hurtful things roll off my back.
are you thoughtful or full of self pity?
LIN
But self pity? I was FULL of that yesterday. The night before was another major relapse for my husband. He got totally drunk. I had to go to my second job and I realized later that he actually left in the truck to buy more vodka while I was out. (phone message of a missed call) Then the 9 week old puppy had a night of wanting to play and harrass humans and her 3 brothers so I did not sleep much. Not making excuses for the self pity...jsut realizing HALT had a part in it.
At hardees two different "freinds" made remarks that I took quite personally. Then there was a copy of the changes in table assignments for 20 of the 100 nametags that I had worked for several hours doing. I brought my lunch and gave it to the cafeteria manager to pack in the box with the sstudent lunches and she forgot. Parents who not said they were coming showed up so some tables had 4 parents and some barely had 1. (ones who did nto stay all day) It seemed like the least little thing during the day brought me to tears. Then I got home..tried for the 3rd straight day to call the groomer for an appointment. no answer. Called my best friend who has the sister to mine..had her groomed and was tellig the groomer how she was surprised I had nto gotten there first. Of course..SHE has time to call during the morning and get the appointment and I dont. (groomer seems to be leaving early these days.) Then the vet told my husband yesterday that our oldest has a heart murmer. So I tried to call and talk to him about trying medication before the put to sleep EKG test he was suggesting but he was gone for the day. His hours today when I could possible catch him do not help me because I dont ahve any breaks today. unless you count my 15 minutes I have to eat lunch, get my mail and go to the bathroom)
So more self pity. It was like I was wearing my feelings on my sleeves. That's not like me. Tears came so easily . That's not like me.
Today I hope to start a new day and not let stuff get to me. I will be cheerful and let hurtful things roll off my back.
are you thoughtful or full of self pity?
LIN
~With Peace & Love, dg~ 8*)[/b][/size]
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.