Realistic/Unrealistic

[caressa]

Today I found myself projecting into the future. I have to go to court to testify on the 18th of April. It is the beginning of a two week trial booking for the murder that took place last year at my old address. It is difficult living in the moment, especially when I have been fighting a cold and taking new medication which my body hasn't adjusted to. My doctor says it will take two months to work, so I am trying to 'hang in' and take it a day at a time.

The reality sucks, I am getting older. Still mentally fighting and accepting that now I have to start paper work to get my old age pension next year. Birthdays have always bothered me, and this one has made me feel ten years older instead of one.

[Lin]

Sorry about the birthdays getting to you......

realistic and unrealistic? I think once I broke out of my denial that I was the one with a problem...then I was able to stay in reality much better. I always thought the alcoholics in my life were the ones who made my life miserable and made me unhappy. I was wrong. I was allowing it. I had the powerwithin me all the time...jsut liek Dorothy in in OZ...I could change my own attitudes and actions and find happiness.

Reality? YES!

LIN

[majestyjo]

Ended up I knew one of the lawyers and was excused. My God was looking after me.

Live in today. Keep it real.