forgiving/resentful?

[Lin]

This is the chip I drew today. I try to think why my HP wants me to look at a certain chip each time I draw one.

I am guessing it is something that happened yeste4rday. I am retiring from teachig full time. So yesterday was my last school Mass for end of the year. Before I even knew I was retiring I asked the Kindergarten teacher to let me know if she needed any third graders to help with signing or reading or singing. I asked her three different times over the last month. She never contacted me so I assumed she did not need a third grade to help out./ I enjoy the practices and getting my kids ready to help out. I was quite surprised when one of the other third grades when up and signed a whole song with her. I wanted to have a resentment. I wanted to be angry. My feelings were definitely hurt. Then I thought to myself...perhaps the music teacher had asked that class for some reason. Perhaps it had nothing to do with the kindergarten teacher. I may or may not ask...not sure. But I'm not going to let it become a resentment. I have bett4er things to d than that. Monday is our last day. So I will probaboly let it go. My students don't know I volunteered them and somebody else was asked. So I shoudl let it go and forgive those who hurt me. (They probaboly don't even KNOW they hurt me. LOL)

Are you forgiving or resentful?

LIN

[caressa]

For the most part, I feel that I am, yet there seems to be a part of me that has trouble letting go. I say I do, but not sure that I actual do.



I heard someone say that a resentment is fear of not having my needs and wishes met and that I need to turn it into faith that if I am suppose to receive it, then it will be mine for the taking. It generally is a lack of acceptance on my part that doesn't allow me to let go.

[caressa]

This was the chip that I pulled this morning. Hopefully today I won't have anything to forgive. Last night my friend made an amend for keeping me waiting ten minutes for him to pick me up. I was just grateful that he picked me up to go to my meeting. A friend was celebrating two years.

Tonight is my home group in AA. My group has been very forgiving of my absense during the winter time when I chose to play Swiss Teams at my bridge club.