Relaxed/Tense

[caressa]

Well, if being in bed sleeping is being relaxed then, that is where I am at. Although, I am not sure that is true. I have been tense because my son has been using big time, and I have been using my bed and isolating. I haven't been going out to meetings, not even my Al-Anon meeting on Wednesday. The best I could do was meet the girls for coffee after the meeting because I woke up at 1 p.m.

I have acceptance of his addiction and his disease and know where he is coming from. I know I can not do anything for him but pray he makes the decision to get and stay clean. I have found myself in fear and thinking "Jails, institutions and death" and wondering if he will make it back after each road trip, yet I know I am powerless over that. He just may choose to carry the message, to use is to die.

[Lin]

relaxed pr tense? HMm. With tomorrow being a holiday,....I am usually pretty tense. I al worrying who will start the biggest war and make somebody cry and leave. This year the war seems to ha[[en pryor to the event...and 6 of them won't be going to the home of the other 5. It's stupid. The 6 household is having Christmas dinner and since the 5 household said they wont be coming again because the 9 year old needs to stay home and play with his toys, the 6 household is having their own Thanksgiving dinner. So that left us int he middle...do we drive 30 min and eat with ^ or drive 2 hhours and eat with 5. I think we chose the 5 because they asked first...only reason.

But I am guessingthe arguments wont be so loud this year...so I am relaxed about that.

LIN