Post by caressa on Dec 6, 2006 15:10:16 GMT -5
This is an oxymoran, I think that is what they call it.
For many years I was a caretaker to the exclusion of myself and had no concept of self-care. This is a selfish program they say. That doesn't mean I can be selfish and self-centered, that is part of my disease. What I needed to learn was to take care of myself and develop self-worth, self-care, self-esteem. I had to give to myself, fill myself up so I had something to give.
When I was using, I thought I was the leading authority on everything. Just ask me, and I'll tell you. Today I can share my experience, strength and hope. What someone does with it is not my concern or responsibility. Before I thought I was responsible for everyone-their feelings, their actions, their every need, desire and want. I didn't know I didn't have the power.
Today at my Al-Anon meeting we discussed Step One. I am powerless over my own dis-ease and the disease of others.
I can't keep my sobriety, unless I give it away, but I must have it (soundness of mind) in ordet to give it away. Hopefully, it will be there for me next Friday as I have to share my story at an AA meeting. I always seem to get asked when I am going through a difficult time or going through changes in my life. With my son's using, the holiday season, and my chronic pain from arthritis, it is always good to go back to Step One, and share with others to get out of self, and while help myself, I can help others.
For many years I was a caretaker to the exclusion of myself and had no concept of self-care. This is a selfish program they say. That doesn't mean I can be selfish and self-centered, that is part of my disease. What I needed to learn was to take care of myself and develop self-worth, self-care, self-esteem. I had to give to myself, fill myself up so I had something to give.
When I was using, I thought I was the leading authority on everything. Just ask me, and I'll tell you. Today I can share my experience, strength and hope. What someone does with it is not my concern or responsibility. Before I thought I was responsible for everyone-their feelings, their actions, their every need, desire and want. I didn't know I didn't have the power.
Today at my Al-Anon meeting we discussed Step One. I am powerless over my own dis-ease and the disease of others.
I can't keep my sobriety, unless I give it away, but I must have it (soundness of mind) in ordet to give it away. Hopefully, it will be there for me next Friday as I have to share my story at an AA meeting. I always seem to get asked when I am going through a difficult time or going through changes in my life. With my son's using, the holiday season, and my chronic pain from arthritis, it is always good to go back to Step One, and share with others to get out of self, and while help myself, I can help others.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.