Acceptance/Defiant

[caressa]

It is not easy to accept when you are sick and tired of being tired and sick. My fibromyalgia has been bad and have found myself so fatigued that I just can't sit in my chair, let alone at a computer.

My computer was down for a week. I phoned a week ago Sunday because I couldn't get on line. They tested everything and decided to send me a new modium. They said it would be two working days. I waited until Thursday and didn't receive anything so I called. They hadn't sent it out. I am afraid I was too accepting. I demanded a credit on my account for the delay and they gave me one for $10. I didn't get the new one until Saturday. I didn't get it hooked up until Sunday afternoon because I played bridge on Saturday afternoon and was too tired to do the job without totally stessing myself out. It made for a nice birthday present to have it back up and running.

[Lin]

I've had to wrok on accceptance this week. My 10 year old Smokey died on MOnday. He was onnly sick 4 days. He was probably sick a while before that but never showed symptoms. He had pancreatic cancer. We did not have time to adjust to him getting sick and then he died. Acceptance? Yeah. This one is tough. But i prayed for it. I prayed for GOD to watch over him. I asked GOD ...if you see that SMokey will suffer, please take him soon. HE answered that prayer. I ia sked for it. I received it. I jsut have to accept it. My defiant side wantd to make him well and keep him a while longer.

Gratitude helps me find acceptance. I am grateful he was on pain meds in his IV so he was not hurting. I am grateful we had him for over 10 years. I am grateful he did not suffer long. I am grateful we did not have to make the decision to put him to sleep.

Finding ways to be grateful about a situation helps me find acceptance easier.

LIN