Hopeful/Despondent

[caressa]

A few weeks ago, I was fearful of being hopeful.

Now that my son has been in detox and gone to a three month recovery program, I have much more hope.

The people in the rooms gave me hope. I found hope in the second Step.

I didn't know about insanity and thought I knew who God was. By the time I got a year in this program, I was able to see that I had been totally insane, and didn't have a clue as to who God was to me. I had new found hope in that God because He had kept me sober and was doing for me what I couldn't do for myself. I didn't know who He was, but I could see Him at work in my life.

I could stop before, but couldn't stay stopped. I had never had more than three months sober and during that time, I wasn't clean, I substituted drugs amd relationships for the alcohol.

Just for today, I am clean and sober. Using isn't an option and I have hope for a tomorrow when I live in today.

[jeanne1]

Isn't it awesome when we actually realize that God isn't something "out there" and unreachable and we actually start to develop a relationship? Awesome. It took me a very long time to get it thru my head who is really in control and who isn't. One time when my son was really little, my husband said to me in jest (although it was true), "Sometimes you are a hard nut to crack!", my son piped up and said, "Yea, shes a walnut!" I know how scary it is when our kids go thru things and we as mom, just want to hold them and protect them from the world, because we are afraid for them. It was the hardest thing in the world for me to step back. Some really bad stuff had to happen before I did. I had to find trust. I had to really dig down deep and resurface all those core beliefs. I had to take care of myself, and remember just for today, I am clean and sober. Using isn't an option and I have hope for a tomorrow when I live in today. Thanks Caressa for sharing this. Thanks for letting me share. Jeanne

[Lin]

The first thing I took away from my first AlAnon meetign was HOPE. It's cool to look back on how things were back then and how they are today. The HOPE has made my life so uch happier.

Great chip!
LIN

[caressa]

Hope for me came when I wsent to my first Promises meeting. It promised me a new hope and a new freedom, that was all I wanted from this program.