Patient/Impatient

[caressa]

Patience isn't one of my strong points. I am counting the days until Friday when I go to the doctor's and get my test results.

I keep telling myself, stop imagining the worst case scenaiio. Trying to be patient with myself is not easy. I am praying I can be patient with the doctor when I do see him.

I know it is vanity and pride that gives me this vision of a scarred chest and although I can't defy gravity forever, they are still mine and I don't want to lose them. I know people have had this operation and have gotten healthy and beaten cancer. My biggest challenge is letting go of the fear because I know, what I fear and think and put out to the Universe, I can attract and draw back to myself.

Thanks for letting me share.

[caressa]

Finally got the test results. Now I have to be patient until I see a surgeon to have the cyst looked at. My doctor says it is not cancer. Going under the knife though is not something I look forward to. If I have to wait for this specialist the way I have had to wait for others, I still have some patience and tolerance to practice.