Post by caressa on Jan 26, 2009 8:34:25 GMT -5
The list posted it as "Confident, having faith/Fearful, apprehensive" but there wasn't room to post it all.
Over the years I have found that I have had a lot of apprehension. I forgot that what happened when I was using and prior to recovery will not necessarily be repeated and happening in today when I take my HP with me and work my program. I had to have faith in that HP that what He brought me to, He would see me through.
I have to have a complete internal to see what is causing the digestive problems, the bloating and the swelling in my body. The test is scheduled for next June and I have had to stay in the day and not project into the future. I have the eye surgeon to see next month. I notice my eyes getting worse but trying to find some acceptance in the moment for what is happening and knowing it isn't permanent or can't be changed in the moment.
Not always easy to do, easy to say, but to live it is another matter. I have also been having pains in my chest but the doctor says they haven't anything to do with the lumps there. They say it is the fibromyalgia. In other words, just live with it. Last night I had trouble breathing, and my first thought what is this? In today I try not to question and stress with the unknown and just learn to know my own body and know when it is off. Last night I know it wasn't anxiety, it wasn't a cold, it wasn't anything to rush to the hospital about although I did give it some thought. My back and right lung felt like it was swollen. I was apprehensive enough to ask my son to look to see if it was. When he said it wasn't, "I just had to accept it was the fibro and acknowledge it for what it was and just do a meditation, relax, and release the tension.
I don't know about the rest of you but my magic magnifying mind can still blow things out of proportion. I am glad that my HP can keep it down to size.
Over the years I have found that I have had a lot of apprehension. I forgot that what happened when I was using and prior to recovery will not necessarily be repeated and happening in today when I take my HP with me and work my program. I had to have faith in that HP that what He brought me to, He would see me through.
I have to have a complete internal to see what is causing the digestive problems, the bloating and the swelling in my body. The test is scheduled for next June and I have had to stay in the day and not project into the future. I have the eye surgeon to see next month. I notice my eyes getting worse but trying to find some acceptance in the moment for what is happening and knowing it isn't permanent or can't be changed in the moment.
Not always easy to do, easy to say, but to live it is another matter. I have also been having pains in my chest but the doctor says they haven't anything to do with the lumps there. They say it is the fibromyalgia. In other words, just live with it. Last night I had trouble breathing, and my first thought what is this? In today I try not to question and stress with the unknown and just learn to know my own body and know when it is off. Last night I know it wasn't anxiety, it wasn't a cold, it wasn't anything to rush to the hospital about although I did give it some thought. My back and right lung felt like it was swollen. I was apprehensive enough to ask my son to look to see if it was. When he said it wasn't, "I just had to accept it was the fibro and acknowledge it for what it was and just do a meditation, relax, and release the tension.
I don't know about the rest of you but my magic magnifying mind can still blow things out of proportion. I am glad that my HP can keep it down to size.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.