MONDAY CHIP - Realistic/Unrealistic

[caressa]

The reality in today is that my son is in a bad way. He is very suicidal and he knows his life is in a mess but unless he chooses to do something about it, it will continue to be so. He talked the other day about leaving the city and doing a geographical cure.

It has been difficult to sit back and watch him. He has been to treatment, he knows there is another way. Often he says, like many others, the program didn't work for him. He didn't work for the program. It works when you work it.

My reality in today is that I had better get my laundry done. I don't like doing it on Monday because it is generally busy then. My feet were really bad yesterday. I finally dug up my support hose and put them on. Nothing else has worked, so hopefully this will help with the swelling that just doesn't want to go away even though I have drank water and cranberry juice, put my feet up and taken fluid pills. I need to call the doctor's office and get them looked at. Red veins that look like bruising has appeared as a result of the swelling. I do have to admit they are starting to scare me.

[SunnyGirl]

MONDAY CHIP - Realistic/Unrealistic

I always try to be realistic…. But, there are times when I
get off kilter and start dreaming about things I’d like to see
happen.

When my youngest went on the wagon, I began to hope
he would quit drinking forever. I made a suggestion to
him (thanks to Ron) about finding something to do with his
free time (sports-working out etc.) He saw it in my face and
heard it in my voice….

He told me, he never said he was quitting forever! I very
sweetly responded "not expecting that, just one day
at a time". He knows my recovery sayings well, I used them
toward his addicted big Sis.

So today, I have no idea as to whether he drank this week or
not. But I am guessing with the Super Bowl there’s always that
possibility (any excuse would do).

I will continue my prayers and hope that God will touch his
heart. And, today I will keep my thoughts realistic and change
the only one I have the power to change and that is ME!

Peace on the journey, SunnyGirl

[caressa]

I call it 'knowing my own truth.' My inner knowingness or as they say in some spiritual books "The Higher Self" or "Inner Self." That is my self-honesty. Not what I want to believe or what I want to believe is going on, but what is the deep, down, nitty-gritty.

I shoved things down for so many years. When I wasn't using alcohol or pills, I was using work, food, cigarettes, relationships, hide in my bed, put my nose in a book, at least with the computer, I am reading 'mostly' spiritual stuff.