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Post by SunnyGirl on Feb 14, 2009 19:55:04 GMT -5
I was never certain that there was a treatment program for
a person with internet addiction.... There is a self-test on the
link above, be sure to check it out!
Peace on the journey, SunnyGirl
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Post by caressa on Feb 14, 2009 22:23:52 GMT -5
There are over 100 12 Step groups in existence and that figure was told to me 10 years ago.
I noticed a difference from the time I first came on the internet. I ate, slept, and dreamed internet. It took over all my thoughts. I lived for them. I don't have the same way of thinking, even about my own sites. If I had any kind of obsession it was about making it here to EoR because I felt it was important to my recovery and my day. If I didn't get here, there was something missing. It went from an obsession to a place I felt was home.
When I first built my sites it was an unknown and I didn't know how to copy and paste. It was about learning and I have gone through different phases. I see a friend of mine totally involved with Pogo Games. For a long time, I was playing bridge on line because 'bridge' was my obsession and I haven't played on line for three years.
It got to a stage at one time if the phone rang and interrupted me, I got angry. I was back to the old way of thinking and acting when I was using. I said a prayer and asked, "God you and I have to do something about this, I don't want to go back to that old way of thinking."
It is nice that I can walk away today. I don't have to post on my sites and I don't have to make something happen when there is nothing there. When I got my computer, it was my whole life, I spent hours on it. Today I do other things and there is a choice today. I can walk away from it. Sometimes like today it isn't easy because I have a build up of e-mails. When that happens, I can hit the delete button and not have to open up every one. Before, I was afriad of missing something.
Today I have learned to have respect for the computer, for myself, and others. A friend told me very early on, if it is good enough to forward, it is good enough to format. Deleting other people's addresses and information is important. I try to spellcheck and the nice things about my new sites, I can go back in and edit any typos and errors. If I respect others, they in turn can learn to respect me.
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Post by caressa on Feb 15, 2009 6:14:25 GMT -5
As you probably all know by now, I can be dangerous when I start thinking or something comes to mind, that I have problems letting it go. This time a thought developed into a vision. I found reference to a site I had a long time ago and had to delete because of errors made when I didn't know what I was doing. I really liked the name and it has been stuck in my head.  I receive a Newsletter called Antestian Road to Enlightenment and they have been backlogged in a file in my Yahoo mail inbox. From this I have a lot of material to post to a new site which I have called Get What You Need. A site where you can go for comfort, an ear, a shoulder, a hug, someone to listen to, a place to vent or to lament, a place for inspiration, hope, and spiritual direction in day to day living. It is a part of JoAnne's Site and if you are a member there, you should have access to the new site and the other one called Santa's Keeper. The new link is posted on Caressa's Site. This will be my first group from scratch for a long time. I have been very busy formatting and updating my old sites. I think there is a part of me who wanted to just see if she could do it with the new format. I am hoping my needs will be met with this new group. My spirits have been rejuvinated since the move from MSN to Multiply. Hopefully, more good things will come into being and that my computer holds up along with my bod which often protests when I am on too long. I am quite please that it took me this long to start it. It has been rolling around in my head for almost a week. That is progress for me. |
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Post by caressa on Aug 20, 2011 21:08:30 GMT -5
Found this post, and it is an affirmation of what has been coming up for me in meditation.
I was going to delete all my sites, and then I asked myself, "Why should I? It isn't all about me but material that was sent to me by recovery and Internet friends over the years. It isn't all my stuff, the only part of it that is mine, is my thoughts on what I received or what I read and shared with others.
There are a lot of pictures on the site, truly beautiful things. Again, they were sent by friends and rather than store them on my computer, I put them on my sites.
I started with 5 names in my address book. Today I have 140 addresses and I seldom send an e-mail. I have 15 sites and seldom post on them unless I am editing them. When they were transferred from MSN to Multiply, a lot of formatting and pictures were lost. A lot of material remains to be reformatted, one day at a time, hopefully it will get done. If it doesn't, that is okay too.
I have been very remiss in building up Get What You Need, I should have started it as a new site on it's own instead of attached to one of the others. Each new Multiply has 3 sites attached as achieves or as a new site. Every site has a link to the other sites, although I am sure I missed some. EoR is listed there too.
My sites got neglected when I stopped focusing on the "I" and my sites, although it was good for me and my recovery and hopefully helped others, I started posting on other sites. I am a moderator on three other sites and they keep me busy. I was asked to moderate sites on Facebook but I refused. I can't guarantee my time and energy and can't always be there for others. That is why I only accept temporary sponsees. My health limit me and it is when I over extend myself, that I get problems and have burn out. My first loyalty has been EoR, even when I was building my own sites.
I had to take my thinking to my God. There was a time in my life that all I could think about and talk about was "my sites" to the exclusion of everything else. I had to do the same with Facebook. I tried to do the heart, hugs, and blessings but just not able to keep up to all the requests. I tried building a Farm and it kept dying and I would have to restart. I finally went back to the City only to get invites from Cityville after leaving Farmville.
I love my Bejewelled2 game and had to take the thinking about that too to my Higher Power. I have a short cut to the game on Yahoo and when I want to 'chill' that is what I did and still do.
It is the thinking behind the addiction that is the problem. When it comes between what you need to be doing then it is a problem. I do try to go to sleep, when it doesn't happen, I either read, watch TV or go on the computer. Either before or after, there is always meditation asking for help.
I am glad to have found this post as it reminds me of my site and I am going to see what I need to do to build it up. I have been using material from my sites to post on another site. I call it Mixed Baggage. It is putting some of that long ago stored material to use in today.
If it wasn't for the pictures I think I would have deleted them. For me, a picture says a 1,000 words. They speak volumes and I am so grateful to have been led to the wonderful site that I get them from. I have been using them for years, and still have lots more just waiting to be shared.
When I was two years sober, I wanted to stand on the newly built CIBC building and tell everyone, "Hey people, I have found this new way of living, let me tell you all about it." At two years, what I knew was the tip of the iceberg. So many good people have been put in my path and I am so grateful for them.
Because of health issues, I don't get out and my computer has been my link to sanity. Without it, I am sure I would survive although I am sure I won't be as happy or as fulfilled.
I thank you all for being a part of my sobriety.
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Post by justjo on Nov 12, 2011 23:22:45 GMT -5
Just read this and thought how neglected the sites are because of life and health issues. Yet the material is there, some of it I now share on other sites, and they are still true today as they were when posted.
So many times I have to turn my thinking over when it comes to the computer, my sites, and the commitments that I have to others. My day is not complete without some spiritual food.
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Post by majestyjo on Sept 8, 2016 17:59:58 GMT -5
Today has been full of spiritual, mental, and emotional food, plus what I cooked for dinner. Life is as I find it, but the key for me is to look, you never know what you will find. Don't miss the message just because you are not to keen about the messenger.
I have had to do this several times over the years, especially when I had my own ten sites. When I think of the insanity of building 10 sites, not knowing what I was doing. Deleted them all, and built 10 more. As they say, "Something is wrong with this picture." Instead of focusing on one or two, I had them broken into categories. I would hear a name I like, and I would start a new site. i.e. Gathering of Eagles. It is an AA convention held in Texas. They asked me to draw up a new design for a new web page. They took the pictures of my eagles. That was okay, I took the name of their newsletter and web page, even though I had a site called The Eagle and the Wolf.
People would send me material and I needed a place to put it. Too special to throw away and no way to store it. I think I liked building more than maintaining. LOL! Sounds familiar, that is pause for thought.
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Post by majestyjo on Jan 14, 2021 2:11:12 GMT -5
Had what I see as a healthy fear of going on my computer. Have had to commit a couple of computers to my God. I made sure I prayed before starting to post.
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.