Post by caressa on May 5, 2009 16:24:29 GMT -5
Today before I left to go to the library and the market I said a prayer and asked that I be connected with someone today. My day started late because I couldn't go to sleep last night. I ended up seeing several people I knew from my building, from the different fellowships but I ended up meeting a woman who I use to sponsor several years ago. She got into a relationship and I moved away from the area where we use to run into each other.
When I met her, she was with her daughter who has had her ear full of things that I had shared with her over the years. She had been in Calgary and I met her when she first came back to Ontario so it was good to see her too. My friend's boyfriend died a month ago. She said she kept remembering what I had shared with her and she was so glad that she didnt' pick up when over his death. He had four kinds of cancer and had recovered from it before but this time it was fatal. She just celebrated 17 years and she like me has gone to several fellowships CA, NA, and AA. As she says, I go where I need to go in the moment.
She was quite affronted that two male supposedly friends of her partner propositioned her since his death. She couldn't believe it. It is so often a habit addicts get into, using someone else to deal with the pain and the loss inour lives and think we aren't using 'our drug of choice.' Using people is just as deadly to the soul as using any other drug.
That reminds me of a time, I think I shared this on the board before, of a day when I was feeling down and depressed. I saw an artist friend of mine and said, "I almost came over to see you on Saturday but that would have been using so I stayed at home." I got a big grin and he said, "You should have come over."
No matter what substance you use it is short term. A quick fix doesn't work. We need to go through the emotions and the pain. Grief is such a difficult process at any time, it has it's own time schedule and will not be hurried.
I have her phone number and plan to call her later tonight to talk to her. It was so good to see her. She is an answer to my prayer and her daughter said, "It is a two way street, she has been wondering about you."
As they say, that isn't odd, that's God!
When I met her, she was with her daughter who has had her ear full of things that I had shared with her over the years. She had been in Calgary and I met her when she first came back to Ontario so it was good to see her too. My friend's boyfriend died a month ago. She said she kept remembering what I had shared with her and she was so glad that she didnt' pick up when over his death. He had four kinds of cancer and had recovered from it before but this time it was fatal. She just celebrated 17 years and she like me has gone to several fellowships CA, NA, and AA. As she says, I go where I need to go in the moment.
She was quite affronted that two male supposedly friends of her partner propositioned her since his death. She couldn't believe it. It is so often a habit addicts get into, using someone else to deal with the pain and the loss inour lives and think we aren't using 'our drug of choice.' Using people is just as deadly to the soul as using any other drug.
That reminds me of a time, I think I shared this on the board before, of a day when I was feeling down and depressed. I saw an artist friend of mine and said, "I almost came over to see you on Saturday but that would have been using so I stayed at home." I got a big grin and he said, "You should have come over."
No matter what substance you use it is short term. A quick fix doesn't work. We need to go through the emotions and the pain. Grief is such a difficult process at any time, it has it's own time schedule and will not be hurried.
I have her phone number and plan to call her later tonight to talk to her. It was so good to see her. She is an answer to my prayer and her daughter said, "It is a two way street, she has been wondering about you."
As they say, that isn't odd, that's God!
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.