Breaking Out of Routine

[caressa]

The reading for today from Higher Awareness really gave me pause for thought. For so many years, I had no discipline or routine in my life. I flew by the seat of my pants or everything was in its place, and I didn't want to change anything.

There never seemed to be any balance. I could get caught up in the same old, and not initiate anything new. I would feel bored, depressed, and aggrevated and didn't know what the cause was. Complacency can be a dangerous thing. Yet the opposite is true as well. I can be so caught up in busy, fill my day up with 'things' and run away from myself and not see where I am at in my journey.

I can get caught up in the people in my life and find myself again focusing outward instead of inward.

My focus has been on health issues and I haven't had much time for socializing or just going and having fun. With doctor's appointments and physiotherapy, I don't have much energy left to do much more than be a home body.

[majestyjo]

Reading this makes me realize that I am there again. I have tried to make an effort to get out to more meetings, but it doesn't happen. As they say, the road is paved with good intentions, yet I need to follow thought with action.

Today it is too windy and rainy, but yesterday wasn't. I had planned to go and didn't get out the door. I was in pain and hurting, as my leg kept giving out. Other times, I just have to find acceptance. I don't find the lack as long as I can make it to the site. It is good, but you can't beat f2f meetings and getting a hug.

[majestyjo]

Hope we can get back to f2f meetings, but online meetings have been a savior to many. Thank you for your service.