Stopping Our Pain

[caressa]

This reading was very long and I was grateful for spell check because I had difficulty typing it all out. It really spoke to me.

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I am very aware that mental and emotional pain comes out physically.
I really liked how the quote said "deep freeze" and that is how I felt when I came into recovery. As I release a lot of the pain, it was like my body became alive. I got my zig to go with my zag and as I was able to release the pain, I could be my own person.

So much of fibromyalgia is triggered by emotional stress. Worry and anxieties ruled my life for years, and they were no longer a 'disorder' but a letting go of feelings that I could turn over to my Higher Power.

I buried pain and emotions for years and I was not only frozen but numbed out. I didn't know what I was feeling. It was difficult to name them and had to learn to distinguish one from the other. They were a mish mash of compounded interest that was a mass of destruciton.

I not only had to deal with my own pain but that I took on that were not mine or were projected onto me by others telling me that I had a responsibilty for their feelings and actions and therefore I was guilty by osmosis and association. So many things were false guilt, pride, responsibilty and old tapes, and I had to distinguish what was mine, heal it and let it all go.

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[SunnyGirl]

Today I am open and willing to feel what I need to feel. I am
willing to stop my compulsive behaviors. I am willing to let go
of my denial. I am willing to feel what I need to feel to be healed,
healthy, and whole.

- Sept. 8 Reading from The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie

This was a hard lesson to learn.... Feel my feelings instead of
stuffing them and carrying them around for years. I was the
one busy focusing on "other people and their needs as a way
to avoid or stop our pain".

I am done with the old way of living and I can "spot it" and
get through it much quicker today. I know I can't heal unless
I am willing to acknowledge the problem and work through it.
Half measures get me no where and I am sick and tired of
being sick and tired, so I continue on the road to recovery..... ODAT

Peace on the journey, SunnyGirl

[caressa]

As the saying goes, "No pain, no gain." Not sure who came up with the idea or concept, but then I don't have to like it to accept it! Once I find the acceptance, then things just seem to happen. That is why I like the five As. I am aware of the problem, I admit to it, I accept it for what it is in the moment, then I change my attitude so I can take action, OR I take action to change my attitude.

[caressa]

When I went to the library yesterday, I found DVDs on Diabetes, Insomnia and Fibromyalgia. The thing that was common with all three was exercise. I do walk but not every day. I need to make a concentrated effort to do more, even if it is to walk the hall on my floor. I also printed a copy of something on the Cross Crawl but for some reason, I have been procrastinating about reading it. It gets moved from place to place, misplaced, disappearing for some reason, and showed up again this morning. I never lost it so it seems like it is something that I need to read.

[majestyjo]

Exercise has been lacking. With covaid not a lot of places to go to.