Welcome Grateful Jackie!

[caressa]

Welcome to the group. Glad to have you here and look forward to sharing with you.

[gratefuljackie]

Thank you for welcoming me back. I have been in program almost 9 years now. I am not sure if I have progressed. Lately I feel I ahve been stuck. I am not good with confluict. Espeaiclly when it coems to doing committee meetings with seasoned Alanon memebrs. I feel overwhelemd and controlled and do not know how to let them know how it feels. Or shall i say have the coruage.
The anger/dominace makes me feel liek I am not good enough. I pray for patience and someone who is willing to be by my side. Mayeb my Higher power needs to be my teacher and my spiritual partner in service and work and let me know my strengths and where i belong.
I also pray that I can know the best words and actions for those who are threatened by me. I pray to have compassion and love and kindness for them. And know we are all the same. I pray for those who give me time and patince as to how to do the steps and grow. Along with the traditons and Concepts or service. I knwo they are all so important.
I also should be in OA. I found the talk of food on the phone and inmeetigns overwhelming. Tyring to pick the perfect food plan. Afraid to let it go too. I want health. My food also relates to my Alanon rpogram. So many people try to people pelase and caretake with food. I ahev Crohns disease and really want to have my Higher Power find me a job and palce whee I can look after myself. it is good to be heard.
I fidn there is so much business theese days adn not enough fellowship.
I feel alone. But I am also not in service through work. I am on disability right now. i woudl like to be self supporting and contribute to in the best way I can.
I have always been enouraged to journall but I find journalling ahrd. I find it much easier to keyboard on here. Maybe it's about bein heard and then it disappearing into space. I need to find an HP that I can journal keybaord too. Here i can say what i need or want without being controlled. I am not stopped by someone else uncomforatblenes.
Wait.. I think i ahve soemthign coming ehre. I ahd soem memories come abck of my childhood and I ahven't been able to get past them. it is liek i am not to talk about them. I once tried to express about it in a meeting and there was crosstalk and then incredible anger from ammebr. it scard me that i stopped talkign about it and have been going round in circles since.
i feel guilty and ashamed for mentioning it. I keep being told to get professional help. I feel rejected. And i can't get passed it. I can't move forward.
I has some intense work done with comlimentary therpaies. Especially Cranio Scaral therapy. Does anyone know what that is ? I aven't dealt with the issues from that or what it means. or what the good from it is. and where I shoudl take it.

[SunnyGirl]

Good Morning (((((Jackie))))

So nice to see you on the boards sharing! My name is
Cherie and I am a grateful member of Al-Anon-Nar-Anon
and also qualify for ACOA.

I have always heard that face to face meetings are the best
way to go when starting the road to recovery. But, I am
living proof that on-line recovery works, I have never been
to a f2f meeting. I don't recommend to others, but it's
given me a brand new life.

I know nothing about "committee meetings" and the only
"seasoned Al-anon members I know are here at Essence of
Recovery and I find them to be loving and caring in every way.
I have about the same amount of "recovery time" as you have
and I find most days are filled with serenity. I do have bad
days, but for the most part, it's bad moments in a day, but I
have a loving "Higher Power" whom I call God and HE handles
all the BIG problems and small as well. I just have to ask for
HIS help.....

I love the saying: "Keep it Simple"

Keep It Simple

The slogan, “Keep It Simple” helps to remind us that simple
solutions are often the most effective ones. This slogan can
help us look at what really is happening rather than what we
imagine may happen, and to take a reasonable, step by step
approach rather than act out of fear or panic.

When I feel a lot of stress and chaos around me I am reminded
to take a time out and quit over-thinking things. My mind can
be a terrible weapon!

I know nothing about "Cranio Scaral therapy" but did find a link:

www.healthynewage.com/cranial.html

Read just a little on this subject, but I then went back and
read my favorite saying "Keep it Simple" and this theraphy
is the best for me.

I wish you peace on the journey..... SunnyGirl

[caressa]

If you mean using hand on healing and Reiki healing, I do and have experienced it.

I just received a invitation from the jail where I volunteer for Al-Anon to take a couple of courses on helping others and working with people who have disabilities. Have been thinking of doing one on ones again. I have heard that the women are being brought back to the jail. They were moved to another area about 8 years ago. I started going to the jail for AA, then for NA, and now I go for Al-Anon.

I know what you mean, I heard a girl share at a meeting and another girl was triggered by her words. I found it best to go for counselling and talking to a professional as well as to my sponsor. I too have shared on line. Perhaps it is because we don't see the people behind the names and feel we are anonymous and feel safe. I didn't have a problem with sharing because I was known for a 50 mile radius when I was using so figured it was better to be known as clean and sober.

It was important for me to get those feelings out. I journalled before I got my computer. Like you, I found it easier to let my fingers do the talking. I got talking and am still talking and often have trouble knowing when to shut up.

Today after my Al-Anon meeting I shared with a member at the meeting after the meeting. We just seemed to connect and we talked for an hour. The blessing was two-way.