Taking our recovery home

[caressa]

Just for today: I will take my recovery home with me.

pg. 5

Love this last line. It reminds me again that this is a 24 hour a day program not a 2 - 4 hour a day program. I recently heard a woman say "I could work my program well except when it came to my home." My first thought was that she didn't take it there but later reflected that she meant that she didn't work it well there.

It gave me the warm fuzzies, especially the first time my aunt came up to me and said, "Can I have one of your hugs." She never drank, smoked, used food or drugs." Her doctor had her on Tyenol 2s and wanted her to take 3s and she refused. When she saw the change in me and my recovery she came off the 2s because she was afraid she may become addicted. She was a very religious person and never married and after she took care of her parents, my sisters and I after our mom died, she decided to do for herself and travelled extensively all over the U.S., Canada, Great Britian, Europe, Russia and China. She would save up her money and take a trip every three years.

This is same lady who said, "I prayed for you then, I pray for you now and I pray you will continue doing what you are doing. She passed awa at the age of 83. I still get the thought that I would like to pick up the phone to call her. I know her spirit is with me.

That was something this addict was never able to do. Save, what is that! Money was for spending and in the moment.


I was never always able to pay the rent and put food on the table when I was using. It is nice to have so much of the month gone before I run out of money.

[caressa]

Have shared this in part on the board but here is a post I made to one of my sites. For me it is about listening to that voice, those little messages, thoughts, and direction I get on a daily basis and how God works in my life.

Thursday night I went to the Women's Group because I felt I really needed a meeting after having a using dream. I not only dreampt about alcohol but other addictions and defects of character such as men, food, anger, resentments and looking for attention.

At the end of the meeting, the women all join hands and say The Promises and they give out Hope Stones which vary in shapes, sizes and colours. There is nothing more powerful that joining together in that circle. I saw a shape and said to the lady beside me, "that has my name on it and picked it up to find that it was an empty snail shell. I love earth tones and that attracted me to it. I looked up snails on the inter net and found that they were good for skin problems. I have cirrhosis, and a skin disorder that I don't know the correct spelling of - it is when your skin is dry and turns red.

On Friday when I went to the market, I got the thought to buy squash. It isn't one of my favorite vegetables but decided to night to add maple syrup and butter to it when I mashed it. After dinner, I looked up the booklet from Shaman Wisdom Cards and it reads as follows:

I am Squash. I am Gourd. I grow well unattended. Let things be. Do not try to control situations or events. My vines spread out to encompass all. I help you create your abundance through my diversity. I am the Sustenance of your life. Combined with Beans and Corn, we are the life force.

Nothing like a subliminal message to someone who has control issues.
Definitely a spiritual cast iron frying pan.

Thanks for letting me share.