Growing Honesty

[caressa]

"On a practical level, changes occur because what's appropriate to one phase of recovery may not be for another."

Basic Text p. 101

It is nice to have something I believe strongly in, affirmed in a reading or by another recovering addict.

It has been my experience, many times over that something that was good in the moment, doesn't not always stay that way. Things change, and things no longer serve me the way they use to and I need to rethink things and continue to grow and change.

Sometimes it is just a new awareness, a new memory, a new defect that has developed that I hadn't been aware of or have developed as a result of something that happened in today or have one that I asked for help on reappear and raise it's ugly head.

I pray that I will continue to grow in honesty with myself and others.

[caressa]

Today in my readings and reading from other sites, the words that have come up have all asked me to be honest with myself.

It is so easy to skim over something and think, "Oh it isn't that bad!" or think "It isn't as bad as it use to be" and excuse myself from really looking at something.

For example, today I am really tired. I have been on the go all week and really need a down time and yet the word 'laundry' keeps popping into my head. I know I have been procrastinationg about it, but then on the whole, I haven't been home with a lot of time to do it or have no energy when I got home to even contemplate doing it.

Unfortunately, I do have enough clothes to last me until Tuesday because I have to conserve my energy to work four hours on Monday. I can change the sheets on my bed and get them ready to be laundered. I have already changed the towels and done the do things. What I need to do is look at what I have done and not focus on what hasn't been done. Stay in the moment and live in today and do the do things I need for myself. That takes honesty, if I don't know what my needs are, how can they be met if I don't turn them over to my HP and ask for help.

This is a quote I found on another site:

Time for Joy - Book - Quote

Today I need to do nothing more than pray and meditate. I trust that all the energies of the universe are working in my behalf. I can sleep comfortably in the knowledge that God is working when I am not.

[majestyjo]

Love this last quote, "...God is working when I am not." I need to remember that.

This angel will change daily. Like the quote says, it will be changing without help from me.