My Gift to God

[caressa]

For so many years, I didn't think I was worth while. I looked at my life and compared it to everyone else and felt like I fell short of being a true human being let alone someone worthy of God's Love and Grace.

I didn't know that my journey brought me to the doors of recovery and that my life was meant to be shared with others. I had my own gifts and experience, strength and hope to share with the hope that it would help others. God Grace and Gift to me was sobriety, my gift was my sharing it with others.

We all walked different roads to get here and yet we had the common bond of alcoholism and addiction. After we got here, our purpose was sobriety (soundness of mind) and sharing how we were able to stay sober one day at a time.

www.hazelden.org/web/public/thought.view

When I compared instead of identifying with the feelings of my fellow travellers, I stayed sick. Thinking I was different or better than, kept me seperated and detached from the love and fellowship that the program offers.

[majestyjo]

It is interesting to go back to old posts and read them. I still feel the same today, but don't get out to meetings very often. Perhaps if I stay on the new medication and it levels itself out, and I stop getting the side affects, I will be able to be more mobile. It is great to have no pain, but not feeling totally functional when taking it and I feel ditzzy and dizzy, and can't seem to think properly because my head isn't clear and I lose my balance.

This weekend I had a kidney infection and thanks to doing a healing meditation and sharing with others, it seems to have gotten better. I couldn't even read a book for two days. So grateful for God's Gift of healing.