Post by caressa on May 2, 2010 13:28:57 GMT -5
This could be put into any section in the recovery rooms. It really spoke to me this morning. My first thought was Amen! For so many years, I believed all the labels and restricted myself because of them.
It reminds me of what my sponsor said many years ago, and I think I have repeated here. A problem you can say stuck in. A challenge you can overcome.
I lived in those cages. Caught up in my addiction, I existed instead of living.
So many times I heard 'words' that I took personally or took them as gospel, never doubting what I was hearing because I had no trust and faith in myself or a God who was conspicuous by His absence.
So much of my life was fear based. It was words that often kept me there. I had to reaffirm myself. Tell myself I could do it and that just because I made a mistake I am not one. Just because I did silly things once in a while, it didn't make me stupid.
Words can hurt and kill! Word kept me in active addiction. It is part of my thinking, don't tell me what to do - watch me. I went to my aunt, my sister and my best friend, in recovery when they were complaining about my smoking. I said to them, "If you want to pray for me, do it quietly." The more you argue and complain, the more I don't want to give them up. I liked smoking. I didn't want to quit. It was a health issues but I still didn't want to let go. It wasn't until I could reach a spiritual decision, that I was able to stop. The same with my other addictions.
www.hazelden.org/web/public/thought.view?catId=1920
It reminds me of what my sponsor said many years ago, and I think I have repeated here. A problem you can say stuck in. A challenge you can overcome.
I lived in those cages. Caught up in my addiction, I existed instead of living.
So many times I heard 'words' that I took personally or took them as gospel, never doubting what I was hearing because I had no trust and faith in myself or a God who was conspicuous by His absence.
So much of my life was fear based. It was words that often kept me there. I had to reaffirm myself. Tell myself I could do it and that just because I made a mistake I am not one. Just because I did silly things once in a while, it didn't make me stupid.
Words can hurt and kill! Word kept me in active addiction. It is part of my thinking, don't tell me what to do - watch me. I went to my aunt, my sister and my best friend, in recovery when they were complaining about my smoking. I said to them, "If you want to pray for me, do it quietly." The more you argue and complain, the more I don't want to give them up. I liked smoking. I didn't want to quit. It was a health issues but I still didn't want to let go. It wasn't until I could reach a spiritual decision, that I was able to stop. The same with my other addictions.
www.hazelden.org/web/public/thought.view?catId=1920
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.