Control

[caressa]

Control, the "C" word for me! I couldn't understand the word powerless until I substituted the word control.

As it says here, control is an illusion. I use to keep trying and trying, but 'it' just didn't work out. If they would just do that, "it" would be alright." If I could only do that, "it" would be just fine!

When I hear myself repeatedly saying the "I" word, then I know that I am back controling my life. My life doesn't 'work' without my Higher Power. Until I could surrender to Him, my life was unmanageable, especially when managed by me. Through that surrender, I am empowered to do what I need to do for myself.

When I turn over the reins, those doors do open. If they appear shut, then I know that the time is not right and I need to learn to 'just be' and know that the door will open with the time is right. When I take my Higher Power with me, I will know what to do and what direction to do it in.


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[majestyjo]

As they say, "If you have to control it, it is already out of control." This was such a profound and enlightening statement for me. It helped to get rid of a lot of denial, not just about my alcoholism, but about my codependency, my eating disorder, and my other addictions.

[majestyjo]

prevail.

There is no need to struggle, today. I will breathe deeply and take my higher power with me, wherever I go. And the doors will be open for as far as I can see.
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