Post by caressa on Aug 4, 2010 23:05:56 GMT -5
Found this quote on my Fibromyalgia support group posted in February 2004.
They say the best way to get out of self, is to help someone else.
Thankfully, God put a couple of people in my path today, because
today has been one of great physical pain and mental anguish.
I went and bought three new pairs of pants because of the bloating and bought extra large and wanted to cry, when I got them home and tried them on they seem baggy, but who knows I may 'swell' into them.
The kidney specialist said, "No one died of swollen feet!" Wonder
what it means if you have a swollen body. At least I know it isn't
just my head!
General when my feet are swollen I don't get the pain, yet lately
that hasn't been true. When they are not swollen is generally whenthe osteo arthritis sets in, now it seems like the fibro and the osteo want to do a dance and come out together and play at the same time.
I am hosting a meeting tonight on Essence of Recovery and I chose the topic of acceptance because at the moment, I just don't have very much of it. I am aware, and I can admit, but the acceptance isn't there so the situation can change, because the attitude is still getting in the way. That is why I call this group, the five As of change, I need to go through all stages in order to bring about an ending to what is happening in my life, in order to make a new beginning.
I thought I was in the 'state of being' which is being between the
end and the beginning, but it looks like I took a slip back, or I
started a cycle and hadn't realized I had come so far!
God only knows and He isn't telling! I often wish He would give me a hint, maybe with my attitude, He has and I haven't been listening.
Love Always,
Caressa
They say the best way to get out of self, is to help someone else.
Thankfully, God put a couple of people in my path today, because
today has been one of great physical pain and mental anguish.
I went and bought three new pairs of pants because of the bloating and bought extra large and wanted to cry, when I got them home and tried them on they seem baggy, but who knows I may 'swell' into them.
The kidney specialist said, "No one died of swollen feet!" Wonder
what it means if you have a swollen body. At least I know it isn't
just my head!
General when my feet are swollen I don't get the pain, yet lately
that hasn't been true. When they are not swollen is generally whenthe osteo arthritis sets in, now it seems like the fibro and the osteo want to do a dance and come out together and play at the same time.
I am hosting a meeting tonight on Essence of Recovery and I chose the topic of acceptance because at the moment, I just don't have very much of it. I am aware, and I can admit, but the acceptance isn't there so the situation can change, because the attitude is still getting in the way. That is why I call this group, the five As of change, I need to go through all stages in order to bring about an ending to what is happening in my life, in order to make a new beginning.
I thought I was in the 'state of being' which is being between the
end and the beginning, but it looks like I took a slip back, or I
started a cycle and hadn't realized I had come so far!
God only knows and He isn't telling! I often wish He would give me a hint, maybe with my attitude, He has and I haven't been listening.
Love Always,
Caressa
Here it is 6 years and almost 6 months later, I am still battling the pain and still clean and sober.
About the only difference is that the last few day, I have been listening more.
This is a one day at a time program. Since that post, I had a woman laugh at me when I told her that I didn't take or abuse narcotics today to deal with the pain. Most people with the disease are on several medications that are addictive. It was pain (mental, emotional and physical) that fed my addiction for years. I need it don't you know? I didn't know that the body manufactures the pain to tell me that I needed more.
The only difference in today, was that I hosted a meeting at EoR and the topic was allowing ourselves to become vulnerable.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.