Post by caressa on Aug 31, 2010 20:49:56 GMT -5
Once we accept the rules at a gut level, they lead us out of negative restraint into positive freedom. By following a few simple guidelines, we become free from slavery to compulsive overeating and self-centered confusion.
- Food for Thought
When I read the reading for today, had to have a chuckle. God never ceases to amaze me. How things fall into place. They work, especially when I don't try to make them happen.
I got the thought to call the woman who use to be my AA sponsor. She fired herself, I fired her, I reapplied, and then I heard her say something that made me wonder if she really did want to recover or stay sick. "What do you expect, I am an alcoholic." I shudder every time I hear those words. I sure didn't want to hear them come out of my sponsor's mouth.
Sometimes she calls me, sometimes I call her and thankfully, the connection is there. I can see where she is coming from and the student has come a long way.
This reading mentioned guidelines and the words that came out of her mouth while we talked was, "As long as you didn't have to follow instruction." I had a real chuckle. I was one of those people who took what she wanted and left the rest. Only to find there was an invisible shelf there all the time. When I found it, it was heaped with things that I hadn't been willing to accept.
When you hurt enough, you become to look at the whole picture. We both have eating disorders. They are not the same, yet what we have in common is the thinking behind the disorder. It doesn't matter what the substance is, if we use it to stuff a feeling, to block what we don't want to see, to hide from things we don't want to face, then we are using.
When I quit smoking, I found a whole lot of feelings I had never dealt with:- anger, rejection, abandonment, resentments, and all the positive feelings seemed completely foreign. When you block out the negative, you also block out the positive.
I have had to turn over my reading, my computer, my eating habits, my service, my reactions to my pain, etc. all things that seemed healthy, which became obsessive compulsive or bordered on it, enough that I recognized where I was headed, and take them to my God and ask for help.
It boils down to those gut feelings. If I think there is something wrong, there is a good chance that there is. I had to learn to trust those gut feelings.
- Food for Thought
When I read the reading for today, had to have a chuckle. God never ceases to amaze me. How things fall into place. They work, especially when I don't try to make them happen.
I got the thought to call the woman who use to be my AA sponsor. She fired herself, I fired her, I reapplied, and then I heard her say something that made me wonder if she really did want to recover or stay sick. "What do you expect, I am an alcoholic." I shudder every time I hear those words. I sure didn't want to hear them come out of my sponsor's mouth.
Sometimes she calls me, sometimes I call her and thankfully, the connection is there. I can see where she is coming from and the student has come a long way.
This reading mentioned guidelines and the words that came out of her mouth while we talked was, "As long as you didn't have to follow instruction." I had a real chuckle. I was one of those people who took what she wanted and left the rest. Only to find there was an invisible shelf there all the time. When I found it, it was heaped with things that I hadn't been willing to accept.
When you hurt enough, you become to look at the whole picture. We both have eating disorders. They are not the same, yet what we have in common is the thinking behind the disorder. It doesn't matter what the substance is, if we use it to stuff a feeling, to block what we don't want to see, to hide from things we don't want to face, then we are using.
When I quit smoking, I found a whole lot of feelings I had never dealt with:- anger, rejection, abandonment, resentments, and all the positive feelings seemed completely foreign. When you block out the negative, you also block out the positive.
I have had to turn over my reading, my computer, my eating habits, my service, my reactions to my pain, etc. all things that seemed healthy, which became obsessive compulsive or bordered on it, enough that I recognized where I was headed, and take them to my God and ask for help.
It boils down to those gut feelings. If I think there is something wrong, there is a good chance that there is. I had to learn to trust those gut feelings.