Post by caressa on Sept 18, 2010 16:38:08 GMT -5
God puts people in your path, and when I run into someone, I always look for the lesson. When it happened his morning, I thought it was ironic and funny. On my way to an AA/Al-Anon Round Up, I walked the last two blocks to the motel with a NA member who I have known for years.
What I recognized today, while listening to the people share, was that I am an addict. Some is good, more is better.
I doesn't matter what substance I use, it is but a symptom of my disease. Again, I could go into the old debate, am I an addict because I am an alcoholic or am I an alcoholic because I am an addict? It doesn't matter! It just is. It is my dis-ease. I used people places and things. I was a user. I will give you what you want if you will give me what I want.
Just for today, I choose not to use. I choose not to use a person to give me hugs and attention to take me out of me because I don't want to be alone. I choose not to hide in my bed from the world. I won't use a substance which will shut me down and shut me off so I can hide from the world. I choose not to use a drug, something that is mood altering and will make me forget who I am and what I believe in. I choose not to use something that will make me stuff my feelings because only by feeling can I work through them, heal and let them go.
Just for today, I accept my disease. I will allow this acceptance to allow me to take action to change my attitude about myself and others.
What I recognized today, while listening to the people share, was that I am an addict. Some is good, more is better.
I doesn't matter what substance I use, it is but a symptom of my disease. Again, I could go into the old debate, am I an addict because I am an alcoholic or am I an alcoholic because I am an addict? It doesn't matter! It just is. It is my dis-ease. I used people places and things. I was a user. I will give you what you want if you will give me what I want.
Just for today, I choose not to use. I choose not to use a person to give me hugs and attention to take me out of me because I don't want to be alone. I choose not to hide in my bed from the world. I won't use a substance which will shut me down and shut me off so I can hide from the world. I choose not to use a drug, something that is mood altering and will make me forget who I am and what I believe in. I choose not to use something that will make me stuff my feelings because only by feeling can I work through them, heal and let them go.
Just for today, I accept my disease. I will allow this acceptance to allow me to take action to change my attitude about myself and others.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.