Just For Today

[caressa]

In the moment, I seem to be quite content with the fact that my son is gone. I wanted him to call when he left and I was sleeping and didn't hear his call.

He left a message yesterday and I missed that call too. It was the first call on Sunday that was important to me. I am content to let him do his thing, I think it is good for him to make the decision to go out west. It is something he needs to do for himself. It was the three weeks of silence that bothered me.

He can do whatever he wants and chooses to do. The only thing I really want from him is to know that he is alive. While he is alive there is always hope.

I hope he chooses recovery instead of Hastings Street.

[SunnyGirl]

( ( ( (Caressa ) ) ) )

Sorry to hear you missed your son's phone call, I know
you would have dearly loved to hear his voice. Even
though they are adults we still worry about them. I
hope and pray that he finds what he needs..... If he is
ready to start on the road to recovery it will happen!
We get no choice in the matter, but I am sending prayers
that he'll open his heart and begin the journey.

If possible maybe you can move the phone closer to your
bed. I don't get many calls at night, but when I do, it's normally
very important, for that reason I made sure I had one handy.

Peace on the journey, SG

[caressa]

My phone was about 8 feet away from me. I missed his call and two others. He did leave a message. I thought later, that I should have saved the message to hear his voice but thought, no, it is best to let him go. I have had his picture as my desktop but that is about to be changed. It has done the healing and brought out the emotions it was meant to do and now I have the peace.

[SunnyGirl]

((((((Caressa)))))

I am glad that you have found peace.... Hugs, SG

[caressa]

Peace in the moment, not saying it will always be there.