Post by gwen on May 17, 2004 10:28:45 GMT -5
I must also live in acceptance of what this day brings, its gifts, its lessons, its challenges, its opportunities. Life does not have to be "better" to be good. I do not have to wait for the good life to come. It is already here.
I want to stop focusing on the day when all my troubles end, dissatisfied with the present. That's the way I've lived much of my life. May I be grateful for today, with its small beauties and simple gifts. This is where God resides.
May I not demand anything of God more than He is currently giving me. May I spend one day satisfied with things as they are. With myself as I am. And take direction from Him about what I can do today to help someone else in need, or to release a character defect that I no longer need as a defense mechanism. I do not help someone who suffers because it will lead to a better life in the future, but because it arises as the action God wants me to take right now. Opportunities to help arise throughout our day in sobriety, if we are looking for opportunities to do God's will.
Just as I have judged myself as not being good enough, other people as not being good enough, my life as not being good enough, my program as not being enough, have I not also judged God as not being good enough, not giving enough, not taking care of me enough, not giving me enough of what I want? God, today I ask that I may fully appreciate the perfection of what You have blessed me with today.
I want to stop focusing on the day when all my troubles end, dissatisfied with the present. That's the way I've lived much of my life. May I be grateful for today, with its small beauties and simple gifts. This is where God resides.
May I not demand anything of God more than He is currently giving me. May I spend one day satisfied with things as they are. With myself as I am. And take direction from Him about what I can do today to help someone else in need, or to release a character defect that I no longer need as a defense mechanism. I do not help someone who suffers because it will lead to a better life in the future, but because it arises as the action God wants me to take right now. Opportunities to help arise throughout our day in sobriety, if we are looking for opportunities to do God's will.
Just as I have judged myself as not being good enough, other people as not being good enough, my life as not being good enough, my program as not being enough, have I not also judged God as not being good enough, not giving enough, not taking care of me enough, not giving me enough of what I want? God, today I ask that I may fully appreciate the perfection of what You have blessed me with today.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.