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Post by majestyjo on Apr 2, 2016 16:24:11 GMT -5
Just for today, I will try to accept the fact that it is snowing so much that when I look out my window, it is a white out. Not exactly spring weather, but as the saying goes, this too shall pass. I keep reminding myself that when I met my first husband on the 24th of May weekend it was snowing. As my son says, "But Mom, you are old." That was 55 years ago and weather has changed over the years, so accept it. Just for today, I will accept what my God sends and go with the flow. There may be a reason, but I don't have to know!
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 3, 2016 0:03:46 GMT -5
Oh JO---we had the crazy weather today! It would be sunny and nice then cloudy with snow showers then just cloudy then real windy!!! I live in Chicago area and they say "if you don't like the weather wait 10 min. it will change"!!!-----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 3, 2016 7:24:46 GMT -5
Just for today, I will continue to work on my acceptance. My son is in active addiction and I have to remember that his words are coming from an addict and it is the drugs that do his talking.
Acceptance is the key to all of my problems in today. As it says in the Big Book, I need to raise the level of my acceptance and lower my expectations.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 3, 2016 17:41:56 GMT -5
When a newcomer is at a meeting for the first time a paper is passed around with phone numbers. I always put a note by my phone number to call BEFORE you drink! I don't want to talk to a whiskey bottle with legs on it!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 3, 2016 20:04:44 GMT -5
Yes when I was on the AA Help Line, I was told not to try to talk to a drunk. They don't make sense and often don't remember the call.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 4, 2016 0:45:24 GMT -5
Hey Jo---Those are good reasons! Another good reason is that I get real rattled when I am talking to my own "active" disease!!!---Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 4, 2016 20:47:02 GMT -5
Just for today, I will be unafraid. I will turn that fear into faith. I will put myself into my God's Care and ask for the strength and courage to see through each day as it comes. I will not allow my fear to spoil my day and prevent me from living each day to it's fullest. When I a$$ume and jump to conclusions, I am not exercising the powers of faith and not trusting my God. I can't, He can, just for today, I choose to let Him. God Bless!!! Don't know which way to turn, take it to the Lord.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 5, 2016 2:32:28 GMT -5
The 2 acronyms for FAITH-feel as if there's hope & Father all in thy hands are what I am digging my claws into today!!! Being left waiting for answers is gonna take a boat load of faith..........
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 5, 2016 10:04:20 GMT -5
Thanks for sharing those. I never remember the one for faith, just the many ways to say fear; so that shows you where I am at. I like them both, but the last one is the one I find the most peace with. The Promises give me hope. So grateful that they still hold true in today.
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 5, 2016 10:14:10 GMT -5
Just for today, I will not procrastinate, I will just do it! If I ask for the Good Orderly Direction I need in today, I know it will be there. If I head in the general direction, I know that I will end up where I am suppose to be. I did put money on my laundry card on my way back from the pharmacy, so that was a step in the right direction. I heard that my friend who is part of the meeting today was taken to the hospital; so I am going to go to the meeting to see how he is and if he is still in the hospital, I will find out which one he is in.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 5, 2016 11:06:17 GMT -5
Wow! Jo!!! Stepping Stones out of Stumbling Blocks!!!! that is fantastic! We have a treatment center in Joliet called Stepping Stones and it is one of the few that have a sliding scale. If you can pay $1,000 you pay that. If you can only pay $100 you pay that. They try real hard to help every and any one who needs and wants help!!! I have always liked the saying "If life hands you lemons you make lemonade" It is a tool for PMA (positive mental attitude)-----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 6, 2016 0:49:58 GMT -5
We have an Adult Children of Alcoholics group called Stepping Stones. I was glad that I went to AA before I went to ACoA. I might have died as a result of my denial.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 6, 2016 6:07:24 GMT -5
LOL JO---I went to an ACOA meeting back in the day when I was shopping around for meetings. I went into an ACOA meeting and people were holding teddy bears and other assorted stuffed animals. I thought WTF is this? The claimed they were getting in touch with their "inner child" I thought that put the "psycho" in psychological and I never went back!!!-----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 6, 2016 15:33:29 GMT -5
Thankfully, I didn't come across that. They had teddy bears at the recovery house I went to. I sat mine on the floor. It took me about a week to let it occupy the same chair. What saved it was the fact that it was a panda.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 6, 2016 20:12:45 GMT -5
Okay I do have to make a confession! When my Mom was dying in 2007 a woman in the program recommended I get a "cross eyed bear" It is a teddy bear whose eyes are crossed. The cross eyed bear aka The cross I bear. Jesus had to not only bare a cross but also get hung up on it. The phrase "the cross I bare" means that you are carrying real heavy burdens/problems. The cross eyed bear is to hug and to transfer all your burdens to him. I have had a cross eyed bear since 2007. I keep him in my closet on a shelf and I do hug the stuffings out of him when my burdens/problems get too much to deal with. It is a therapy thing for me and it helps a little bit. He is not a panda bear he is just a tan teddy bear with crossed eyes.....Was that WTMI? (way too much information)
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 7, 2016 16:01:00 GMT -5
Just for today, I will allow myself to grieve the passing of my friend. I am not sure if that is the issue or whether I have the flu, could be both. Again, it all comes down to acceptance of what is in the moment. Don't fight it, accept it, and then you can move forward instead of being stuck in the situation. Recovery is a process. Just because I have been in recovery for several 24 hours, doesn't mean that life stops happening. It is one day at a time.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 7, 2016 16:17:37 GMT -5
Hi JO---Grief can be real hard to pin point because the beginning stages are shock & denial. I can get this confused with the first step of NOT admitting I am powerless and life being unmanageable. The picture you posted is perfect!!! It can feel like a mess of spaghetti and all over the place!!! I have STILL not been notified if my biopsy is cancer or not. I am very anxious, frustrated, and my emotions are like that bowl of spaghetti!!! All tangled up and a mess!!! The 4 horsemen of Fear are terror, bewilderment, frustration, and despair. They are leaving hoof prints all over my a$$!!!! Other then that every thing is just fine----Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 7, 2016 16:32:48 GMT -5
Continued prayers my friend. Just got a call from my friend Barb. She wants to leave at 8:30 a.m. I think I am in shock. Hope I can sleep tonight to get up at that unGodly hour. We are going for breakfast and then to Walmart. It seems like days since I was out and about, yet it was only yesterday. What I didn't do was a lot of posting and that is why I feel like I am languishing. I just love that word!
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 7, 2016 16:39:55 GMT -5
Hey Jo---I like the word lavishing! You can be lavishing time and attention on shopping, breakfast, and attention to your friend. Lavishing sounds better to me than languishing but I do admit I am languishing waiting for the phone call that still has NOT come! I was suppose to hear back about my biopsy either WED-Thursday-or Friday and it looks like it will probably be Friday! (huge sigh that could blow out a bonfire)------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 9, 2016 6:45:19 GMT -5
Just for today, I will pray for the willingness to be willing to do what I need to do for myself. Haven't had a lot of motivation lately and I need to get outdoors instead of looking at four walls.
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