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Post by majestyjo on Apr 9, 2016 18:23:36 GMT -5
Just for today, I will put some gratitude in my attitude. I was grateful to see 4 people I knew even though I was only out for an hour.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 9, 2016 19:13:10 GMT -5
AA stands for altered attitude. You've got to go thru some changes if you want to alter your attitude. There is a song by David Bowie called "Changes" and a line in the songs says "trying to face the strain of changes"........Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 9, 2016 19:50:58 GMT -5
Like the Spiritual Experience on page 569 of my soft cover third edition of the Big Book.
In order to achieve spiritual experiences and awareness, you need to change your attitude in order to aid recovery.
I personally have embraced change over the years, I never wanted to just stay sober, I didn't want to go back to where I came from and act out in my disease by going back into old patterns, behaviors, and habits.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 9, 2016 21:42:11 GMT -5
LOL JO!!!!---I don't embrace change--change embraces me!!! I am over whelmed and in shock over the diagnosis of fast moving cancer and it is going to be a hell of a fight and lots of changes physically, mentally, and emotionally. I just spent an hour on the phone with my sister in law who is a 14 year breast cancer survivor. She was real blunt & honest. She claims "a piece of skin is not worth your life and that I have to fight it" I will be losing a big piece of myself but can still live on and survive. She blew a lot of sunshine up my skirt. I thanked her again & again but it is gonna take time for me to soak up all this knowledge. I am trying to be like a sponge and soak it all in but my brain is just over whelmed and dripping with information. I keep going back to Mom's words of "Hope for the best & cope with the rest" My coping skills are frozen & in shock right now......Baffled Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 10, 2016 23:18:28 GMT -5
Just for today, I chose life. When I came into recovery, I wanted to stop the world and get off. I had no purpose for living, and didn't think I could include myself on the list. The 5th Tradition of AA is what gave me purpose and a reason for being, even though I no longer found that I had to question and justify my existence. When I shut down or live in the negative, I block the positive and the Grace of God from coming into my life. Life on life's terms. I often questioned, why me? So many others seemed to be so much more worthy and needy. I was told "Why not you?"
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 11, 2016 2:35:25 GMT -5
WOW!!! You said exactly what I need to hear! Thanks so much! I don't want to piss God off by questioning his reasons. I just have to really hang onto the Serenity Pray and have acceptance and courage........
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 11, 2016 18:54:36 GMT -5
Just for today, I will tell myself that I am worthy of recovery. It doesn't matter that I am old. I don't look bad for an old broad. I lost weight, but more importantly, I lost inches. I saw a lady on the bus who made me grateful. Even on my fat days, I wasn't as big as her, and yet, it is important to identify not compare. I still have an issue that I need to apply the program to, one day at a time. Attachments:
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 11, 2016 21:14:45 GMT -5
LOL I love what I heard in a meeting years ago---My sh*t ain't sh*t next to your sh*t!!!! Someone always has it worse. The other gem of wisdom that I just love is--You go to church to save your soul and you go to AA to save your A$$!!! I am in the process of trying to save my A$$ because it is worth saving (I hope)------Burned Out Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 12, 2016 6:58:42 GMT -5
No doubt in my mind. Continued prayers.
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 12, 2016 7:06:46 GMT -5
Just for today, I will appreciate the gifts of recovery. One of the greatest gifts for me was the freedom from active[/] addiction. They are too numerous to mention and as it says in the Big Book, we will be amazed before we are half way through working the Steps. The Promises gave me hope even though I was in complete denial. I just didn't want to go back to where I came from, and alcohol was a part of that life style. Tradition Three gave me the right to attend meetings, I did have an honest desire not to drink, even though I didn't think I was an alcoholic. I realized that I used other things like work, food, pills, relationships, and men, and more men.... Looking for attention, acceptance, and love in all the wrong places, and the program gave me the freedom to be me and to change, one step at a time.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 12, 2016 20:54:21 GMT -5
The last promise "we will realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves" is the one that is really happening for me. I was ready to give up and I found a woman surgeon who is a breast cancer specialist. She is gonna try to save my breast and get rid of the malignant tumor all at the same time. I have to go thru chemo but I am gonna keep an open mind and talk to a cancer specialist tomorrow. They are going to do for me what I can't do for myself and I feel/think that is God working thru people!!! Got some hope!------Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 13, 2016 4:10:07 GMT -5
So happy for you. I hope she can do both. To my way of thinking, no breast, no cancer is more peace of mind for me.
Maybe because it is because I am older. To my way of thinking, they already got more than there share of attention in my lifetime, time for me to take care of my whole body.
Wishing you well. Chemo is not walk in the park, so you have a lot to go through. My prayers are with you.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 13, 2016 6:58:47 GMT -5
Oh Jo!!!----I was told I Had to have surgery & chemo anyway!!! If they remove the breast or not!!! I would much rather keep the breast that I love and have had almost all my life then lose it and have to go thru the sh*t anyway!!!! It would be devastating to me to be disfigured and fight for self esteem. Shakesphere once said "vanity thy name is woman" I was born on Shakesphere's birthday and I am a woman so I got a double whammy going on here!!! Thanks for your prayers!!! It means a lot to me!!! Glimmer of hope---Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 13, 2016 23:04:00 GMT -5
Just for today, I am grateful that I can start my day over any time. I can pause, give thanks, ask for direction, and start my day anew with a better outlook on the day. Some days I jump up and don't do meditation right away, especially if I have to run out for an appointment and I don't get much sleep the night before. I often find myself standing at the elevator door and saying the Serenity Prayer. When I get home, I generally end up going to bed, and when I wake up, and do a much bigger talk with my God. My day started 5 hours ago.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 14, 2016 0:41:13 GMT -5
YES! I understand completely what you mean about getting "up & running" I just give a "nod to God" and say the shortest prayer there is! which is "HELP" at night if I am exhausted I say the other shortest prayer which is "THANKS"
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 15, 2016 10:16:00 GMT -5
Just for today, I will be responsible. I will do what I need to do for myself. Just because I don't 'feel' like it, doesn't always work. I know I shouldn't be hard on myself, but I shouldn't spoil myself rotten either. There are gray areas, but I need to look at whether they came from the dark, or whether they came from the white side, and what do I need to do to bring them to the light. As it says in AA literature, "Bring it out of the dark so the light of reason can shine.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 15, 2016 15:24:27 GMT -5
Well Said!!! I also like the term "in the sunshine of the spirit"
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 17, 2016 3:20:21 GMT -5
Just for today, I will pray and ask for my personal truth and what I need for me. What is good for someone else, just may not work for me. I know that in early recovery, many people were not willing to do what I did to stay sober. I went to meetings, meetings, meetings and when I got tired of meetings I went to more meetings. That is why I miss getting out in today. I am glad that I have all those deposits made on my life insurance so that I can draw on them in today. I have reaped a lot of dividends as a result of the people my God put in my path.
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Post by bunnypie on Apr 17, 2016 3:58:55 GMT -5
Hey Jo---In my neighborhood we call going to lots of meetings "putting a deposit in your sobriety bank" You can draw from the sobriety bank when you are not able to make a meeting but you have to keep putting more deposits in so the band doesn't run empty!!! This past week has been one shock and long drawn out medical procedure after another. I have not been able to make my usual amount of meetings. I am gonna try to make one in approx. 6 hours but I have to get back to bed and catch some more sleep! It is difficult if not impossible to run on just a few hours of sleep (for me anyway)---Drowsy Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Apr 17, 2016 4:33:21 GMT -5
This site and Bluikiti's site have been my filling up station. I haven't been able to get out to many meetings over the last five years, and if it hadn't been for these sites, I am not sure I would have stayed sober. I use to have my own sites, but MSN and Multiply closed. I got so much material, I had to have a place to put things because I didn't' want to delete it and throw it away, I wanted to share it.
I probably talk and think more about recovery than most people who go to meetings regularly. I have also had a spiritual advisor, a sponsor, and a Native American woman as a co-sponsor in my life.
Me alone with me is bad company as they say.
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