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Post by bunnypie on Mar 3, 2016 1:55:56 GMT -5
LOL JO!!!---There were 7 people in my family of origin. My Mom would start to get cabin fever and be snappy & grouchy about every thing. My Step Dad would warn all us kids that Mom was having her "February Freak Out" and we would all walk on egg shells around her nervous to sneeze the wrong way!!!-----Bunnypie  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 4, 2016 20:14:24 GMT -5
Just for today, I will do what I need for my health and well being. That means I have to step back and pause, and go get something to eat. I still haven't had dinner, and I need to feed by body, mind and spirit. I did my meditation and came here to the site, so now I need to make my grilled cheese.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 4, 2016 23:18:16 GMT -5
I have always tried to live by HALT=Hungry Angry Lonely Tired. It is such a simple formula but so critical to my health and well being!!!!------Bunnypie |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 5, 2016 15:49:16 GMT -5
Just for today, I will apply the slogan H.A.L.T. to my life. I will listen to my body and not try to rationalize and justify my thoughts and actions. It is important to be myself and not question my day when I turn it over to my Higher Power. If I am doubting myself, I am doubting my God.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 5, 2016 20:29:08 GMT -5
Oh Jo!---To Thy Own Self Be True is really kicking in for me today! I told a very dear friend that they had a ridiculous superstition and they got really mad and slapped me. I put my head in my arms and sobbed. Then I grabbed my coat & purse and bolted out of there. The angry, lonely, and tired are definitely kicking in and I doubt if I will ever see or talk to this person again.---Devastated Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 8, 2016 2:59:04 GMT -5
No reason for anyone to slap you. Sounds like they were H.A.L.T. and if that was there behaviour, I would be out of there too. That behaviour is not condusive to friendship. As you say, "Slap" is a four letter word.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 8, 2016 3:03:33 GMT -5
Just for today, I will affirm that I am worthy of recovery. Respect must be earned, it is something that I have to give myself, if I want others to respect me. Let it begin with me.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 8, 2016 11:27:29 GMT -5
Dearest JO----Thanks for your compassion and understanding. I was scared. He slapped me upside the head and my ear was ringing & stinging. I went to get up to leave and he slapped me upside the head on the other side. I was so shocked and hurt I sat down at the table and put my head in my arms and sobbed for at least 5 minutes. My feelings were hurt as bad as my head!!! He started talking and I leaped up and grabbed my coat & purse and made like a sheep and got the flock outta there. The house of hell!!! I did cuss him out as I was leaving but it was over my shoulder as I was making my escape. My sponsor claims I pushed him too hard and expected too much. He is a sick dying man but if I have to walk on egg shells around him then I don't want to be around him and be in fear of getting physically hurt. I had good intentions but they got misunderstood so it turned out to be a losing situation for both of us well maybe he is glad I am gone but I feel lousy about it!!!----------Baffled & Bruised Bunnypie
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 8, 2016 16:13:53 GMT -5
Pray and ask for the healing. You will go through a grieving process, let yourself heal physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
It is only normal to feel bad, but it isn't your bad. As they say, clear your side of the street, make things right with God, and let everything else go.
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 8, 2016 16:19:19 GMT -5
Just for today, I will work on my acceptance. In the moment, my son has his phone shut off and I can't get hold of him. I got a call from one of his friends and they couldn't contact me either so phoned me to leave a message. When I shared with a woman after the meeting, I said, "Acceptance is the key." I need to practice what I preach. LOL!  |
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 8, 2016 16:28:31 GMT -5
My last words to him as I was making my escape were not kind, nice, or polite. I was cussing him out as I was running. I regret saying them over my shoulder. I was scared and angry. My main priority now is to get over this horrible emotional hang over!!! I am struggling to let go and not be dragged but I have been dragged for 3 days now and it has to stop......I am a wounded soul who is trying desperately to heal!!!!-----Bunnypie
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 8, 2016 16:31:38 GMT -5
I have a hard time with acceptance. I do resignation. The difference between acceptance & resignation is that with acceptance you let go of the emotion. Resignation you hold onto the emotion. Either way you give up but acceptance obviously is much better then resignation.......Wisdom to know the difference???!!!!
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 8, 2016 16:38:38 GMT -5
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 8, 2016 22:48:35 GMT -5
I understand what you are saying. I will probably be grieving this for a long time. I am talking about letting go and not having it consume me like obsessive & compulsive. I am desperately trying to turn it over to God and actually leave it with him. There are a lot of claw marks on the situation but I do recognize the need to let go.
Let Go & Let God makes sense even if it hurts and makes me cry. Pain is a great motivator.......
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 9, 2016 7:56:24 GMT -5
God is a Master Physician and turn the pain over as well as the situation. Asking for the obsession and compulsion to be removed. It sounds like a lot of anger there too, so it too needs to be processed and turned over. As they say, justified anger is still a danger.  |
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 9, 2016 7:58:17 GMT -5
Just for today, I will take life as it comes. I will not turn away, I will not wrap myself up in the blanket of denial. I will accept things as they are, not as I would have them be.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 9, 2016 11:33:34 GMT -5
life on life's terms.......
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 10, 2016 2:22:31 GMT -5
Just for today, I am trying to practice patience and tolerance. I want to go to the Holistic Center because I had pain in my hip for the last two days along with headaches. I am hoping the rain stops when it is time for me to go there and to the mall. I know I won't melt, but the dampness can be a real killer.  |
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Post by bunnypie on Mar 10, 2016 6:52:22 GMT -5
Hey Jo---I always tell people I don't like to go out in the rain because "sugar melts in the rain" most people laugh and some just stare at me. It is just a little humor! Only a little......
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Post by majestyjo on Mar 14, 2016 0:54:14 GMT -5
Just for today, I will make a point of getting exercise. I haven't been out all weekend and it promises rain for the next three days. Even if I just go around the block on my floor or go downstairs to the mall. It is important to exercise my mind too, so will try to read something or watch something inspirational and stimulating.  |
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. I will be back looking for Lin and others.