Just For Today

[eri]

Hay,

I think that for many people you are an insperation. I know that I can look up to you with amazement, you and Ron welcomed me with open arms, and I will never be able to thank you enough. It's true what you said about always someone with more problems...I remember after Heinie died (2004) I was angry as hell,and the most silly question was asked most "are you okay" I remember thinking to myself..."take a geuss...the first one will be spot on"...and then just replyed.."fine thank you" lol, that's how we humans work. Anyway I was so caught up in my own problems and pain, I forgot that apart from me loosing my bf, someone lost a brother, a son and a friend. His friend also died in that accident and his gf where worse off than any of us, she lost he mother 4 moths before that because of cancer, a month before the accident her father was murdered then Heinie and Riaan was killed in the accident and about 2 months later her aunt that looked after her at the time attempted suicide...she had way more problems and pain than I could imagin, at least I had my mother and father to comfort me. I think it's human to get caught up in our own problems, but like you say there is also always something to be greatfull for.

Thanks for all the posts...I enjoy reading!!!

[caressa]

Thank you so much for sharing. It is so important to remember the things I am grateful for. As I get older (have never grown old gracefully), things break down, my body's reaction to many years of abuse from myself, my husband, my boyfriends, car accidents, alcohol, etc. the I am reminded that "Payback is a b*tch!" I have five types of arthritis. I can't do the things I use to be able to do and that is difficult to accept for this recovering alcoholic who wants everything yesterday until she remembers to live in today.

Just for today, I choose to not take my pain out on others. I can share it by being compassionate, caring, loving and forgiving. Just because I am having a bad day doesn't give me permission to take it out on others. Thank God there is a Step 10.

[eri]

Yep..

Just for today I will take it one minute at a time...may God guide me every step of the way!!!

Keep smiling!

[caressa]

Today I had a real issue come up. I got on the bus to come home with the thought of going to Fortino's and treating myself to lunch. I ended up getting off the bus early and going for a hamburg (I had been thinking Kentuky Fried), and ran into a woman I use to sponsor. There was a part of me who wanted to run and hide. She said, "I often think of you bud didn't know if you still wanted to be friends." I felt bad yet I knew, that I made the right decision to detach from her when I did several years ago. She didn't drink but was on a lot of prescription medication, which she often abused. Not only was she a trigger, like looking at the old me before recovery and she drove me crazy with her phone calls at all hours and all she did was complain and not want to do anything about it. Not willing to change, not willing to work the program, not willing to look at herself instead of her alcoholic husband. I couldn't sponsor someone who wasn't willing to work a program, whether it was Al-Anon or AA.

I set boundaries before, I can do it again as needed. She looked sober although I have seen her drinking several times in the past. When anyone, anywhere reaches out for help, I want the hand of AA to be there. Most times she didn't want a hand, she just wanted to dump and use me instead of utilizing me as a sponsor.

This weekend is our Canadian Thanksgiving. I am grateful that just for today I don't have to use people, place and things to escape my reality today.