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Post by Lin on Mar 2, 2007 18:04:41 GMT -5
Hi Yorkie! Welcome! LIN
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Post by ascc2131 on Mar 26, 2007 20:44:23 GMT -5
I never had ANY belief that there was anything else but the life we are living right now. Until I moved to Costa Rica 1year ago, and there was too much cocaine there and I got myself into a whole lotta trouble. I overdosed 23 times and one of those times I fell and hit my head REALLY hard, that was about 6 months ago. When I hit my head I also just happened to fall onto a coffe mug and it broke and I got 36 stiches in my face!!! The reason that I am telling you all this is because someone or something MUST want me to make something of myself, why else am I not dead???!!! I've been so stupid, I can't believe I did all that to myself, by the time I flew home to Canada, I was 94lbs, and I looked like crap! But I've now been clean for 32 days and I am so happy, addiction is a form of suicide, everyday that I was using I just wanted to die, and at the very begining of my recovery I wanted to die even more than before. I'm 21 yrs old and I've been using hard drugs since I was 11, that's the honest truth, but I was 4 years clean, after becomming a herion addict, before I moved to Costa Rica. I thought that I had my problem WELL under controll. That just goes to show you that when you start to think like that is when it will sneak up on you and takes controll of you and your life once again. So I say to all, how can there NOT be SOME kind of higher power, fait, destiny or karma? There must be some kind of plan for me I should've died, and that is just the tip of the iceburg for my story, I grew up in group-homes and youth jails, I had many other overdoses, as well as alchol poisoning several times, between the ages od 13-20 as well, I don't know what but something kept me alive and now I'm just trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do with myself. So please, everyone, know that someone out there loves you, and love yourself. Loving someone else is easy, loving yourself is the hardest thing to do. so every morning when you get up and look in the mirror, tell youself that you ARE beautiful and that you DO love youself! love to all!xoxo Anna~Banana
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Post by ascc2131 on Mar 26, 2007 21:30:17 GMT -5
Welcome Wendy,
Welcome yorkie, Don't be nervous, I was too, but I feel the same. I just need some support and help from my brothers and sisters here and I'll be ok. It is feels so good to know that we are not alone and that there will always be someone here to help you and give you advice and support. Just remember to love youself, I've said that like 100 times, but I can't say it enough because I don't love myself allot of the time and I find that is what gets me into trouble. know that you are loved here by all and that YOU WILL NOT BE JUDGED!!
Anna~Banana
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Post by ascc2131 on Mar 26, 2007 21:34:40 GMT -5
Welcome cjmman, and home
I've only been sober for 32 days but this site has given me allot of hope, so stick with it and everything willbe ok. If you fall, God will help pick you up and start again
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