Roll Call, if you please......

[tired]

sending you all a big helloooooooooooo love tired

[knothead]

~graced~ said:

*hugs*

Here's hoping he travels safely and stays in a port of calm during the storm.
Good on you to have it ready, set, go for when he returns!

And yep....Bill and Bob were pretty enlightened folks.

My old crudmegeon (sp) of a sponsor would have never let something like a down-graded hurricane stop him, if there was any way to do so.

He made it home just fine. I shared my amended 4th step with him subsequently as my amended fifth step, and have since taken the sixth and seventh steps.

I now feel somehow not unlike the cancer patient that has been allieved of all symptoms! I have been warned that these feelings can fleeting, and that the actual disease is only in remission. If I want the positive feelings & attitude, I must aggressively continue in the program.

But, my mind (disease?) tells me I should bask in the glory for a moment. This is where I got stuck the last time.

I won't. Not this time, dammit!!! I will work on step 8, much of which was already done in step 4.

There is no time-table set down for us to follow. I geniunely believe that everyone of us is different, though we so obviously have the same disease, with many of the same character traits.

If I don't get all (or at least most) of my 'self-loathing crud' out of the way fairly quickly, I'm gonna be back out there, doing what comes natural to an alcoholic. But that's just me.

The longest thing on my resentment list in step four was actually myself, believe or not.

I have to find a way to quit beating up on myself so much.

As some I have heard say in meetings: 'let us love you until you can learn to love yourself.' I actually like that slogan alot. That is something I can really agree with and relate to in totality.

Personally, I have made but a beginning (though a beginning with my HP I have made). It is PROGRESS, not PERFECTION, to which we all seek.

For myself, I just need to dump my old life (ASAP), & go from there.

[~graced~]

It's a great feeling to tell on myself and to be loved just the same. I never knew loving without condition until the program. Pretty awesome thing--not only to be the recipient of it, but to allow myself to be 'reshaped' into a new way of living and loving others. It's all cool stuff!

Good for you to have followed through and done all the footwork to this point! I'm glad for you, truly.

Gotta tell ya, I've done a few 4 steps of my own and had the privilege of hearing a few fifth steps. My first fourth step was 98 pages of hatred of others and hatred of myself. I had a buttload of resentments and little to no fears. The longer I'm sober, the more fearful I admit to being. It was much easier for me to allow myself to be 'pissed off resentful' than 'frightened'. Ego, no doubt. My resentments against me were largely driven by that fear of not being good enough. Gosh, how I struggled to admit that!

I had a great experience with that first 8th step! The sponsor had me list those folks who I could readily get with, those who I could get with sometime and those I'd never get with. Tricky fella...LOL...the 'sometime' became 'now' and the 'never' became 'never has arrived'. If you think the freedom comes in the fifth--you're right! There's another freedom from bondage that comes from setting things right that I never did get until I experienced it. It's an awesome thing to walk through the fear and come through the other side with a clean slate, free from shame and 'right' with the world.

And yep, I'll just agree with those truly wise folk who assure you that they'll keep loving ya too much until you get around to loving yourself. It's a cool thing to GET to!

(((((((((((((KnotHead)))))))))))))

I've been waiting to read that the sponsor arrived and so had you!

[ChrisK]

I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE THIS POST GO DOWN THE TUBES. SO MANY NAMES. I'VE OFTEN WONDERED ABOUT ALL THE PEOPLE I'VE MET IN THIS PROGRAM. SOME PEOPLE END OF DYING BECAUSE OF THEIR ADDICTION. HERE'S WISHING EVERYONE ANOTHER 24 HOURS OF SERENITY

LOVE
\
CHRIS

[little726]

Robin here. I fell off the wagon and it ran over me, ouchie!!!! But i am back and starting on my second day of sobriety.

I'm so glad all of you are here.

Robin

[caressa]

Glad you are back Robin, just keep coming. We only do this program a day at a time.

Perhaps the list of tools can help you to stay in the moment and do what you need to stay sober.

[ChrisK]

Robin,

We got a saying where I am the person that gets up earliest has the most sobriety for that day. Dust your self off. I'm glad to see you posting

love
chris

[lildee]

I still here. Working in the back ground. Welcome back Robin. Stay with us ODAT.

Love and God Bless
Arlene (lildee)

[caressa]

U

[preciouschihua]

Suzanne here
still looking for her horse.
Tag
back
and
roll call.
Oldster here
3 and 1/2 years of sobriety

[ChrisK]

HOPE ALL IS WELL 4 EVERYONE TODAY

LOVE

CHRIS

[little726]

Hey everyone....how do you play this "tag" game? I want to play, too.

It's good to be back.

Love you guys

Robin

Ok, i'll tag graced

[mender1]

Just a hello'
I read but do not post much anmore but i am sober and well on a new spiritual journey.

Peace and love

[caressa]

Glad to see you are still coming, miss your posts.

[ChrisK]

Like a long lost relative:)

hugs

Chris

[lildee]

Still here plugging away.
from across the hall
Love ya lildee

[dg]

Here Here!

[~graced~]

Nice to see you still hanging around, doing the deal, Chris.

[Dean]

Slow to respond and not been around here much but I'm here!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

[caressa]

Hate to say it too loud in case everything goes boom! I'm back!!!!