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Post by Marcie on Nov 3, 2009 16:00:49 GMT -5
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Post by Marcie on Nov 4, 2009 8:37:32 GMT -5
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Post by Marcie on Nov 5, 2009 9:07:36 GMT -5
I woke up this morning thinking about all the things I needed to do today. "I need to ...., I should ..., and if I don't ...." Then, comes the news--One of us, after a good amount of time, has picked up a drink. This news changed my train of thought. "The only thing I have to do today is not pick up a drink."
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Post by Marcie on Nov 6, 2009 15:13:19 GMT -5
Long meeting after the meeting last night. One of the women, newly sober, is in a lot of pain. (real life stuff) Needless to say there were a lot of tears and laughter. Best part, she is doing everything that has been suggested to her and she still believes this is going to be the easier softer way. I don't wish this pain on anyone, but it sure helps to keep me grateful. (By the Grace of God)
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Post by Marcie on Nov 7, 2009 9:11:32 GMT -5
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Post by SunnyGirl on Nov 7, 2009 12:57:52 GMT -5
It's always nice to see your smiling face!
and I am so happy that you took that leap of faith,
signed in and began the journey to recovery with all
of us. The road is a long one, but with recovery
friends it's so much easier..... Hugs, SG
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Post by Marcie on Nov 8, 2009 8:13:25 GMT -5
Good Morning Sunny  It's good to see you  Hung out with some women with some long sobriety last night. (Eating/Speaking Meeting) I rode with one of them and I needed that. I had some stuff rolling around in my head and needed a different ear. I feel better and maybe I helped my friend too. Amazing what happens when I ask for help.  |
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Post by caressa on Nov 8, 2009 10:44:36 GMT -5
Talked to a couple of friend myself and sharing my feelings about my son going to detox. Hope to meet up with a friend after lunch. We went through treatment together. She has some issues going on in her life and needs to talk about them. We volunteered together, lived together for a short time and then she relapsed. I am glad that she made it back into recovery. Attachments:
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Post by Marcie on Nov 9, 2009 5:35:12 GMT -5
Good Morning  Checking in early, mostly because I woke up too early.  But it works. Going to meet my 90 day woman this morning and then we'll be hitting a noon meeting. Then back here to do what I didn't do for so long. * Clean * Have a great 24!! |
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Post by SunnyGirl on Nov 9, 2009 12:13:31 GMT -5
Okay, I've got a feeling there are a lot of us out there, looking or lurking. Which ever. I also know how hard it is to fight the urge to sign in and post something. Please don't fight it. Give into that temptation.   Have a great 24!! question for you Marcie... How long did it take you to make the decision on signing in and how long till you made your first post? Many years ago I came on-line because I was worried about my daughter (my original qualifier). I went to several sites and never posted, then found a site called Another 24 hours.... From there I came to Essence of Recovery (about 10 years ago) because many of the old-timers moved over here. I have been here ever since (minus 2 years of no computer), many come and many go but I always wonder why. I am just happy that you found us and jumped right in, I love all of my recovery friends here at EOR.... OBTW... thanks for the cup of joe ;D |
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Post by Marcie on Nov 9, 2009 15:40:11 GMT -5
OBTW... thanks for the cup of joe ;D Your welcome Okay  I’ll try to keep it short.  My first experience with Recovery Boards started shortly after I started to get sober. February 18, 2005. I would Google things like recovery slogans, meditation books I’d heard about, etc... I kept hitting recovery boards and would just read them, the ones that would allow it anyway. In early recovery the computer was a tool, at least for me. I learned a lot about how to work a computer too during this time. Crashed two. ;D For 20 something years I’d really never slept, so I had a little problem sleeping that first year. Knew how to pass out, but not sleep. It was good to find people like me sharing what was going on with them and how they were dealing with it. I learned a lot of things about A.A. and how people stayed away from the drink, "One Day At A Time". The first time I signed onto a board was about a two months later when I saw a post going unanswered and I so related to what they shared and posted right then. Anyway, since then have joined a few boards and still pop in from time to time. I even tried my hand at running one, and there’s a lot more to it than I’d thought. I learned that in this too, I could not do it alone. So I hung my head and shut it down. No regrets. But I still felt the need to give back where I’d been given so much. So here I am.  And grateful to be here. I’ve actually been viewing Essence of Recovery for a couple of years. It’s second on several Google searches.  Anyway, I started watching Essence of Recovery a little more closely and noticed you could use another recovering drunk. So, I guess it took me, from that point, about a week to sign in and become part of the “We”. I’m enjoying getting to know you, Caressa, Linda and I spotted Cherie this morning. ( hoping I didn’t miss anyone ) I’m so glad to be here. Thank you for giving me a place to share. (a) That we were alcoholic and could not manage our own lives.
(b) That probably no human power could have relieved our alcoholism.
(c) That God could and would if He were sought. |
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Post by Cherie on Nov 9, 2009 17:10:04 GMT -5
( ( ( ( Marcie ) ) ) )
all I can say is, we are fortunate to have you!
Hugs, Cherie (aka SunnyGirl)
(When I finally got a computer again, I could not remember
my password, so signed up again as Cherie, which is my
name, but most know me as SunnyGirl)
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Post by Marcie on Nov 10, 2009 8:08:57 GMT -5
Cherie/SunnyGirl Good Morning!! First thing that was on my mind is gone. Now I'm wondering what I'm doing wrong with this photobucket thing. Oh well it's just a thing. We hadn't made any (real) plans for Thanksgiving. We don't have children and of late it's been just the two of us. My mom called and was talking about a time we had her over. That was a couple years ago and it was just the three of us. She was and is still suffering from a depression over my father's death 12 years ago. I didn't say anything about not planning anything, I just acted like I expected her, she so excited. My mom is a caring, loving person and she is one that helps me practices my principles. I suggested Al-anon a while back, but she's "got it" . I have a brother who also, IMO, could benefit from A.A. I just keep him in my prayers. Well, I didn't mean to get into all that. Oh!! I remember now. Husband retired from the Fire Department here over 3 months ago. Talk about restless, irritable and discontent (him) . It was a lot of "change" for both of us. He's worked 2 jobs since before we were married. Anyway - He applied for a job on Friday and they called him yesterday to interview today. That sound promising to me. It's just through the holidays, but with the way the job situations are this is great. Well, I shut up now. ;D 
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Post by caressa on Nov 10, 2009 13:58:23 GMT -5
Had the sleeping problem too. Use to use pills to shut off the world and was a firm believer that if one didn't work, more was better. I didn't know that the body would manufacture the pain or situation to give my brain the message that 'more is better' and it was a vicious cycle. You would think I would have learned from my alcoholic father who would sleep short periods or as you say, pass out and then get up for that drink that would take him to oblivion again. I used to make the hours go away. Today there are not enough hours in a day. Even with the fibromyalgia (sleep disorder and chronic pain and fatigue), I have had to learn to accept what is in the moment. Todays like today are awesome! I got my arthritis medicine yesterday and I took one yesterday when I got home, ended up watching TV and reading until 2 p.m. even though I had been tired and sore when I got home. I slept eight hours which is almost unheard of for me. I just accept things as they come. Sometimes I do a little pregnant doging and belly aching when I don't get sleep, I don't like going 20-30 hours without sleep. To me that isn't recovery. Recovery for me is getting up, asking for help, living my day to the fullest, and going to bed at night with a grateful heart for another blessed day. I don't like taking my 'disease' or 'stinking thinking' out on others. I don't want those old control issues, those resentment and self-centered feelings to take over my thinking and actions. I don't want to project my stuff on to others. I want to enjoy each day happy, joyous and free and share with others. Over the years I have had so many great people put on my path of recovery. Sadly, a lot of them are no longer there. I had had the thought of going to the noon meeting today but didnt' wake up until 11:50 a.m. I am a firm believer that if I was suppose to be there, I would have woke up in time or I would have remembered to set my alarm. Recovery gave me a real thirst. I was able to transfer that desire for more into something positive. That is why I opened my recovery sites. I had so many blessing sent to me by others or things I had received from daily readings and from my own books, I wanted a place to share them with others. The online experience has enriched my life, and when I got to a stage in my life where I couldn't go out, recovery came to me. I will always be grateful for Another Empty Bottle, Another Twenty-Four Hours, Essence-of-Recovery, Recovery Inn and Milkman's Circle For Recovery. Have felt as though Essence-of-Recovery as my home group for several years. When I can't get out, I can come here. Share, go back and look at old posts, and get the mental, emotional and spiritual food that I need. |
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Post by Marcie on Nov 15, 2009 10:16:49 GMT -5
*I've lost this 3 times and if I lose it again, "It was meant to be" Hello All Here and Sober, by the Grace of God. I wasn't able to get on-line for the first day because of Ida's winds and rain. But we still had electricity and phone. It did feel strange not being able to sign in. I think, no, I know I needed this time, because I was using the Internet to avoid something I needed to deal with. I can't share exactly what was going on, because I'd be taking someone else's inventory in public. Yes, I took my too. (with the help of others) Bottom line is that I'm with out a sponsor right now. Before I made and followed through with my decision, I talked with 3 other women, with good sobriety. Believe me, they did a good job at making me honestly look at me. In the end what was best for sobriety was the bottom line. No ill will, but I feel relieved. I'm not sure why, but every year for the last 3 years, I get into this place where I just want to quit and I'm there now. None of the same stuff was going on as now and back then, for the most part I shouldn't have been feeling that why. I don't want to drink, I just don't want to do all the things I know I'm supposed to do. I'm due to pick up my 5th year in February and some say that has something to do with it. I don't know. Anyway, I plan to take my recovery way down to the basics. Using the slogans, getting to a meeting, especially if I make an excuse not to go. These ladies have opened there recovery for me and said they'd be here until I see the teacher my Higher Power sends me. Well, going to see what I've missed. Good to see you all  |
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Post by caressa on Nov 15, 2009 12:47:48 GMT -5
Thank you for sharing Marcie. I was told coming up to my own five years it was a danger period. Often people feel that the milestone can be shadowed by thinking there is no more and I have learned it all and I don't need the program. I am just 'fine' don't you know. It ended up it was just the beginning. I have received so many gifts over the years. At five years, I got a service sponsor.
I can identify with the sponsor issue. I saw others have the same sponsor for years. I felt like I was less than and not doing things right. I was fired by some, I let go of others, life just happened and they taught me what I needed and it was time to move on. I have had many sponsors over the years. I have one in name only these days. We seldom connect, yet just last week I called her to tell her that my son was going into treatment.
She has had her own issues and she isn't in a place that I needed to detach from. Sponsors are human too. When they end up substituting one addiction for another, they lose their sobriety (soundness of mind) even if they aren't drinking. My Al-Anon sponsor detached from me because of her issues. She is now moving away to another city, so I too am without a sponsor. I have been thinking about getting another one but haven't been out to too many meetings to find one. I know the door will open when the time is right. I know I need one, so will keep turning the situation over and more will be revealed.
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Post by SunnyGirl on Nov 15, 2009 13:36:31 GMT -5
 ( ( ( ( Marcie ) ) ) ) The internet is a wonderful tool for recovery, but nothing like face to face to get your feet back on the ground.... You were greatly missed but I am happy to hear you are taking care of business.... Good to have you back my friend! Peace on the journey, SunnyGirl |
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Post by Marcie on Nov 16, 2009 6:03:04 GMT -5
Good Morning Caressa and SunnyGirl!! Raised early and I like when that happens. Slept great and am ready for the day. Today's Daily Reflections was exactly what I needed this A.M. I'll cut and paste in the "Readings" section. Have a happy and sober day!! |
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Post by SunnyGirl on Nov 16, 2009 13:12:56 GMT -5
Mornin Marcie...  Gotta love that early bird! I am normally an early riser, anxious to get up and start the day. It's a rare day when I don't get a good solid 8 hours of sleep and wake up fresh and ready to go. I am planning to have great day today and hope all of you do too..... Hugs, SG |
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Post by caressa on Nov 18, 2009 14:48:35 GMT -5
My days get turned around. Often my mornings are when other's have their day half over. Today I stayed home from my Al-Anon meeting because I didn't want to pass any germs onto anyone else. I am grateful for the phone calls I get from recovery people, they are generally a spiritual boost that I need in the moment. I am grateful for the meeting tonight. It is there when I can't be at my home group. The site has been my home group for years. Grateful for the newcomers who have joined the site. Keep coming back, I need you. Attachments:
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Good Morning!
I’ll try to keep it short. 
My first experience with Recovery Boards started shortly after I started to get sober. February 18, 2005. I would Google things like recovery slogans, meditation books I’d heard about, etc... I kept hitting recovery boards and would just read them, the ones that would allow it anyway. In early recovery the computer was a tool, at least for me. I learned a lot about how to work a computer too during this time. Crashed two. ;D 
And grateful to be here.
. I will be back looking for Lin and others.